Sunday, November 28, 2010

woah

I fell off plan this weekend. big time. I drank, and ate, with abandon.


Here's to not eating for the rest of the day, and recomitting, day 1, tomorrow

:-P

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thanksgivings Eve

Happy Almost Thanksgiving!!

Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays, just because it incorporates so many good things. Relaxing at home with family, eating good food, and no pressure to do anything. Plus my work gives you Thursday and Friday off, which is pretty sweet :-)

So due to the upcoming holidays, I've come up with a game plan :-)
  • I am NOT weighing in this week. My rationale:
    • I weigh in on Friday. I need a new scale and plan on buying one on discount this weekend. Plus, the night before is Thanksgiving. I can be an angel this week, but I know my body, and I know eating a large meal the night before will cause me to gain
  • I am however, tracking on Thanksgiving. Last year, I was half-assing WW, and as a result I didn't lose a whole lot. This year, while I plan on enjoying myself, that doesn't mean I'm going to indulge fully. I didn't track on my birthday just because I knew it would be too hard and I wanted to have fun. Thanksgiving is one of those test holidays. If I can enjoy myself while staying on plan, then I can successfully change my life.
    • Plus, My sister is doing most of the cooking, so most of our food will be pretty healthy.
  • I am working out A lot this week, to know I did my best to stay OP
    • I ran the 5K on saturday (more on that in a bit), I did a video monday night, I am working out at the gym tonight, and plan on doing SOMETHING (either a run or a video) tomorrow morning).
  • While I plan on drinking, I'm sticking to relatively low point drinks, to balance things out :-)
I think that's a pretty good plan, don't you? Holidays are going to happen, and I can't throw caution to the wind. That said I also shouldn't try and be too good. It's a holiday, there is no point in not enjoying myself. I need to find that balance, and I hope I will :-)

Anyways the past week has been pretty good! Friday night I relaxed, Saturday was


The race.

We got there late, like 15 minutes before the start. The place was packed. I found my friend, registered, and got in the line :-) It was nice running with someone, but it was also hard because I was so focused on everything I was feeling, and I couldn't really listen to my ipod as I felt it was rude. which I didn't like.

But it helped me pace a bit better, and feel like less of a failure for hanging in the back. I'd say we walked a total of 5 times over the 3.1 miles. Which isn't bad. And we definitely ran more than we walked.
I did bring a water bottle, but they announced they would have stations every quarter of a mile. Which to me seemed like a lot but I told M and we hid our bottles. They would have weighed us down.

Yea there were two water stations, and the first one was out by the time we got there. That definitely didn't help me at all. 
We made it to the second water station, at that point we had ran about 2.3 miles. We finished the course with a new vigor, and our time was 42.10. My secret goal was under 45, and my outloud goal was under 50, so I was psyched :-)

M and the sisters finished in 32, which was awesome and I was really happy for them. M was so excited and proud of himself, it was nice to see him like that :-)

All in all, it was a lot of fun. I'm definitely waiting a little bit until my next one. I'm going to slowly start to run outside instead of the treadmill as much, to help me for the next race. I'm thinking around St. Patricks day is a good goal :-)

After the race we got breakfast with some friends who cheered us on, and then napped for a bit. I went to see HP7 with a friend, which was phenomenal :-) then I had date night with M, which included going to this adorable little pizza place in kendall square, low lighting nice quiet music, and some of the best pizza everr, we got a  pepper and onion with sausage. Super thin crust not greasy, it was amazing.

After my indigestion started to act up, and I couldn't even enjoy the beer at the Cambridge Brewing Company :-( I am both scared and excited to have my gall bladder out, it just sucks having to suffer like this, and have those pains

After we headed to the field and the people's republik, both are awesome bars. I switched over to my tanqueray seltzers with a splash of cran, and got a little drunk :-) it was a great night

So here's to a great holiday weekend, I'm definitely going to enjoy my time off!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Week 33, a lowkey weekend, and a pending 5K

Week 33 results- down 1.0! Not too shabby.

I did work hard this week. I ran Friday Sunday Monday and Thursday. I did weights Sunday,and  for almost an hour on Monday. None of my runs were less than 30 minutes (with warm up and cool down) and 2 of them were 40 minutes.

I definitely wish I had done more weights this week, but oh well. Friday, M had a blister and couldn't run, so I felt bad keeping him at the gym for too long. Plus, it was a friday. Sunday I didn't end up at the gym till 345, and by the time I finished my run, it was 440, and I had to be at church at 5. (well I didn't have to, but). Monday I tried to make up for my lack of workout with a heavy one, and I definitely felt it Tuesday and Wednesday, which is why I didn't do anything those two days.

Still, four days of an intense run isn't too shabby :-)

Eating wise, Friday night M and I got a pizza, but it was an individual sized one. So to complement it, we got precooked chicken, cut it up and put it in a light ceasar salad. It was delicious, and the pizza was super thin, and with minimal cheese and sauce so it was more like cheesey bread than anything. Saturday afternoon we went to the fish and chicken (a local place with a huuge menu, for pretty cheap. It reminds me a lot of London/Ireland, because it is the definition of a takeaway), and I saw they opened their new section:

The Healthy Market.
everything in the healthy market was under 500 calories.

!!!!

I got a turkey burger (380) with cheese, and popchips. All together I think my meal was 11 points, and it was phenomenal. and under 10 bucks. I'm definitely suggesting we do that again :-D

Saturday night I had a bowl of minestrone soup, and had some drunk pizza. but only a slice! and it was small. and i tracked it, so yay for me!

Sunday I worked out, and during the week I focused on heathy eating, with a few minor slip ups. But nothing too awful, just more drinking than I would have liked (I did a wine and chinese night on monday with my friend. not terrible, but still,), and beer on Tuesday (just one!)

So I think 1 lb is well deserved!! Although a piece of my scale broke off, and I noticed that after my results got skewed, so I hope that doesnt mess anything up :-( Im going to have to buy a new one I guess

Coming up I am so excited for this weekend! tonight I'm laying low, watching a movie, and tomorrow I have my first 5K bright and early! I'm very excited/ nervous. I've been training, and can do 3.1 on the treadmill with ease now. Which is great! But I realize an actual course is very different. I'm confident If I allow myself to walk sometimes and run most of it, i'll be fine :-)

Then tomorrow night is date night :-) M has his first saturday off in months (literally), and we are going to this great pizza place, and then for a mini bar crawl, similar to what we did on valentines day. I'm excited :-)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Week 32

And I hit 31 pounds down! I was a little bummed (I won't lie) that I lost .5 this week. I was soo good! I tracked everything even when I didn't want to, drank wine instead of beer, and worked out 4 times including 3 gym sessions, Wednesday included running 3 miles! But I keep on reminding myself that a lot of the time my body is behind a week sometimes, and I have the opportunity to work out 5X next week (I may do Fri then Sun-Wed so I can take a break thurs and friday before the race, but I may take tuesday as a rest day instead, well see).

I know that WW tells you to be happy with any losses, and I am. I mean I would much rather lose .5 than gain .5, but I sometimes get frustrated with losing slowly. I still haven't gone down a size (although I can squeeze into a 16, I don't feel comfortable wearing them yet) and just wish I had more steady progress. I also realize that I need to focus on being OP more, because I do slip up sometimes.I think I'm going to focus on being good 85% of the time. Most meals, restrict drinking to 2-3 nights a week (moderately,)and work out even when I "dont feel like it"

I hate that I do that!! Tuesday for example, I didn't work out because I was exhausted. I need to make it more of a priority. Having BF be more health conscious lately has been awesome, because I'm nol onger searching for times and places to work out, he's all about going to the gym friday evenings that we are doing low key things :-)

In addition, just typing Week 32 makes me realize that I've basically lost a pound a week, steadily. Which is AWESOME. And technically I gained 5 pounds and then really got serious about losing, so I was even heavier.

So This weekend I have the opportunity to be OP. Tonight is pizza night, which Im super excited about. And we're working out and then hanging out with friends. Low key.

Then tomorrow I may try and run outside, depending on how I feel. I may use Saturday as a rest day, and run outside on sunday. Tomorrow night I'm going to JD's apartment for a girlsnight. I declined eating out so I can try and be op. It's hard with them because we're big snackers. But I'm going to focus on being good!

Friday, November 5, 2010

WI Results

Down 2 lbs, hit my 30 lb mark (30.5)

Lost another point, but so what

Take THAT halloween!!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Winter's coming

You can see it in the weather. It's been freezing here the last few days, like winter jacket, gloves freezing. Maybe I'm just not ready for the winter, so everything feels colder than it is :-)

Either way, today my office seems to finally realize that its November, and having the air on is innapropriate at this stage (they didn't get that yesterday, and the wall heater did very little to combat the cold air coming through the big vents over my head. I was shivering and my fingers were purple)


But I digress! All in all, I think I could have been a LOT  worse this week, with Halloween and all. Normally, I'm super good about resisting candy and the like, but not this week. I ate at least 2 pieces a day,which honestly is better than I would have done last year. It's so hard when they leave candy near the water bubbler!! And this weekend I did have a few snacks, and got super drunk on Saturday. However I had great workouts Friday night and Saturday afternoon, and ate modest, point friendly meals all weekend. So a sweet here and there won't kill me. Plus I tracked EVERYTHING :-)

In addition to my weekend workouts, I also had a decent workout on Monday (I had a terrible side cramp so I ran/walked, but hey, better than nothing, right?) where I focused more on strength and core. And then Yesterday I worked out and had my best run yet. I finished at 2.75 miles (including .25 warm up and cool down). I ran for a total of 29 minutes, and honestly felt great. The first five minutes I was engrossed in a quality episode of Cash Cab, and when I realized I'd already gotten 7 minutes into my run, I had already overcome that initial hurdle of feeling tired and winded, and got into a grove. I did take 3 20 second breaks, to catch my breath and have a sip of water (The asthma will make me all dizzy and nauseus if I don't do this), but I was so invigorated after!! And it got me really excited for my race, which is in about 2 weeks. This sunday, no excuses I am running outside. I'm going to map out my run tonight, I think.

Another WL hurdle I worked on this week was talking about my weight with BF. On Tuesday night he was telling me how he hasn't weiged himself since he started working out and watching his diet about a month ago, so he doesn't know how much he weighs. He's afraid that not seeing a huge loss will discourage him, so he's just going to keep on doing what he's doing and hope for the best. We got on the topic of my weigh ins, and I did something I've never done before: I told him my starting weight. It was so scary for me, and initially I took his shock for disgust, because I am so insecure with that. I haven't told him before because the rediculous girl inside of me thought that telling him would make him not like me anymore, and be grossed out to be with someone that big. I'm almost 30 pounds down, and while I have a long way to go, I need to be proud of what I have accomplished. I don't get a lot of recognition from those around me, and I need to have that pride come from within.

Anyways another fear of mine is that knowing how much I weigh, M will subconsciously try and push me to lose more, because deep down he wants me to be skinny. I have had a few conversations with him where I got offended because he offered to be a "drill sargent" for me, and in the back of my mind, I take that as he'll make me feel bad for skipping a workout or eating something. It's weird, but when people offer to "help" me, my messed up mind takes it as an insult. I can't explain it, but I always turn him down, which I think offends him a bit. This weekend I heard from a friend that one of our friends was telling his girlfriend that she had to work out for eating X amount of food that night, called her fat, etc. I think I fear that if I let M help me with my weight loss, it will come to that, which is ridiculous. M cares so much about me, and would never hurt me like that.

This isn't going to have an easy solution, I realize that my WLJ has to be personal, but I can't push away my support team either. I need to figure out the balance that will make me happy, and let my victories be something M can share with me :-)

I'll recap my WI tomorrow!!