Thursday, September 29, 2011

Accountability results and Lady Luck's knocking at my door!!

1. I did not walk outside today.

I was up late with that stupid red sox game, and then couldn't sleep. And then I woke up to it pouring this morning, so no. I will try again tomorrow.

2. We got that apartment!!! M and I move in November 1! Excited doesn't even begin to explain how I feel right now, I love the area and am so freaking excited to start our little life together


:-) After all the bad from last week, (and some of it is still going on), it's nice to get some good news, and the place is big (700sq ft. Big compared to the fact that most places we were seeing were around 400), and has a dishwasher, built in AC, nice carpeting, and a freaking patio. Plus the girl who lived there before was super honest with us (she told us about a break in the building had in May, and how it was the only one she had experienced in 2 years, and the girl whos apartment was broken into had hosted a huge party the night before), and basically said the most bugs she had seen were spiders, and if she weren't buying she would rent it forever. So I am optomistic.

Ahh!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Accountability Post

I was reminded after reading Stephanie's Blog Post on waking up early to work out, that this is a strong possibility for me. Especially if I take on a second job, I feel like it will be beneficial for my weight loss and gym routine to wake up early and at least do something.

Now believe me, I've tried in the past. I just have so much trouble getting out of bed in the mornings, that's my downfall. The funny part is that I don't even have to get up that early, especially compared to some people. I don't have to be at work till 830, so I normally get up around 730-740, take a quick shower and am out the door by 8. So waking up earlier in theory, shouldn't be this damn hard.

But ugh, it is so damn hard. Last week I didn't work out Monday, and told myself I would do it Tuesday morning. Tuesday came and went, I slept.

So here I am posting it. Because if I post it, it's known to the world, and I am going to report back tomorrow if I did, or if I didn't

Tonight I am going to work out. Tomorrow morning I am waking up at 7 and going for a 30 minute walk. Baby steps are key, and hopefully these walks will be my gateway drug into waking up earlier and doing more workouts. Or maybe they will just be walks that I take in the mornings that benefit my weight loss, and wake me up.
I'm starting out with one day this week though. Tomorrow. From there, we'll see what happens.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Hopefully on an Upswing

Sorry for the emoness that was Friday. I was lucky to have an awesome weekend, complete with a pretty relaxed bus ride to and from Connecticut, and a great girls weekend with D. We got to catch up, shop a little, eat awesome burgers, and amazing Froyo (have you ever had Swirl? because I did, twice haha), and sit back with large quantities of wine, pizza, and chick flicks (ok, I don't know if Easy A falls into that category, but Something Borrowed definetly does!) It was very relaxing, but unfortunetly with the early mornings, I didn't get much sleep, and am still very tired!

I also fell in love with this during my 9+ hours of travel round trip
Like I gasped multiple times and wanted to sob and yell out in happiness because I loved this book so much obessesed. I can't wait to start the second one, If you haven't read it yet I highly suggest it :-)

So After a weekend of food, drink, and lack of exercise (although we had a great walk on Saturday where I was incredibly sweaty by the end haha and definetly tracked it), I'm back on the ball. I had a healthy B-L-D and pretracked most of my meals yesterday (although I did have some candy. No more!)

I didn't work out yesterday, because M and I went to see an apartment which was literally the apartment of my dreams. I put in an application, and all I can do now is cross my fingers and hope and pray. If we get this, our luck is definetly turning around! I'll keep you posted! I am all jitters though, and so freaking nervous, the management company said they would let us know in a day or so, so hopefully!

Here is my plan for the rest of the week

T-Go home, change, workout at the gym (the actual gym! haha it's been awhile...)
W-Video
Th-Cardio either at the gym or outside, whichever!

Happy Tuesday!

Friday, September 23, 2011

The Worst.

This week. has been. The worst.

I am counting down the minutes till it ends.

Sorry for not posting this week. I tried a few times, but it's been crazy at work, and in life.

To Recap:
  • The apartment we saw was nice, but small for the price, so we decided to wait. Our dream location opened up yesterday, and was gone by the time we got outta work. Boo to the housing market in Boston. We'll find something eventually
  • M's had some awful back/chest pain, and an even worse doctor experience, where they didn't send the referral, so his physical therapy got pushed back a full week. The pain is starting to effect his life, causes him to not be able to focus at work and make mistakes, and make him pretty damn miserable. It sucks, for lack of a better word.
  • They found a tumor on my Mom's uterus, and are doing a biopsy Oct 3. Fantastic way to end the day yesterday, let me tell you. She's very upset, my littlest sister K who just went off to college called me sobbing yesterday because she wasn't home for my mom, and let me tell you, being the oldest sucks in these situations. Because I have to comfort others while I'm scared to death that it's going to be the worst case scenario. Let's hope for the best
  • I had a good workout on Wednesday, but got those nasty stomach cramps again. I think I ate too close to working out though, and I'm gonna cut out the cheese from my snack, see if it helps, because I didn't have the cheese the last 2 times that we're good runs
  • My brakes started to act up, thankfully we have a really nice repair guy. He is fixing them for 200 less than the other place I brought it to. Still sucks though, 300 bucks I wasn't planning on spending this week
  • I woke up yesterday and my chest was so sore. I am pretty sure it was congestion and pain, but all the same it was weird, and I didn't work out because of it. It explains why I've felt so down trodden all week though, I normally feel that way when I'm getting sick.
  • I was 196 this morning. I attribute the pizza, pumpkin ice cream (omgz) and reese cups last night to this. But it still stinks. I was going to work out yesterday morning, but due to my chest congestion (and what the eff is up with that, I never get chest congestion, it's always in my head!)
The past two months have just been stressful and just plain no fun. I'm ready for a switch around please! Let's list some good stuff:

  • I'm visiting D who is the only person I told of everything that is going on with me, mainly because I had to let it out, and she's the only one I know who wouldn't judge me, and be the right mix of nice and compassionate. It's good to have friends like that and this weekend is sorely needed!
  • The pumpkin ice cream
  • I went hiking with my sister K last weekend and it was AWESOME
  • My car could have been a lot more expensive
  • My sister M is home tonight, I haven't really seen or talked to her since she went off to college this year
  • M and I have a nice quiet evening planned, which is exciting as well
Lets' just hope things turn around, ok? Sorry for the whiney post, I just needed to get it out ;-)

Friday, September 16, 2011

Five Things Friday

To start, I did maintain this week. BUT with my walk on Sunday I worked out 4 days, and 3 of those workouts were over 400 calories, bringing me to a total calorie burn of 1827 for the week. Which is awesome. But I'm sore, which I attribute to a lot of my maintain. Hopefully next week will be different, as I'll keep with my workouts, and I won't be nearly as sore!

Five Things That Make Me Happy Today:

1. Running Victory!
So with my whole "I'm going to make excuses so I don't have to go to the gym" thing I've done the past few weeks, my runs have been few and far between. As in I've posted about all of them, haha. But last night I dragged myself to the gym, did 10 minutes on the eliptical to warm up, and then jumped on the treadmill for 35 minutes. I did the 5-8-5 breakdown of the couch to 5k program, and it was tough. Although I did fuel better for this one (carrots and ranch for the win!), so I didn't feel like dying, but my breathing was hard, and my legs were sore from the past 2 days, so they felt like deadweights, which was fun. But I did it, and I had no cramps, which was my main MO. So I was happy :-)  I think I'm going to start back from that point and work up to running with minimal breaks. We'll see how it goes :-)

2. Fall Mornings
It was 50 degrees outside this morning, and I even threw on a sweatshirt (which I bought too small last year, and now fits me perfectly, by the by), and craved warm cider. I settled for regular coffee, but all the same :-) I love mornings like that, the crisp air, not being sweaty or uncomfortable. it's the best :-)

3. Red Sox Game Tonight!
I'm completely ignoring the fact that they are currently in a downspin and don't deserve to make the playoffs, and have frustrated me more than anything else recently.

No, tonight they are going to win. Because I'm going to be there. And I'm going to witness the comeback. There, I said it so it has to be true, right?

4. Apartment Hunting
 Ok , this doesn't make me happy, but the possibility of us finding a place does. We are viewing a couple tomorrow in the area we want to live in, within our price range. Here's hoping we find something we love and just rent it!

 5. Good Friends
 Because I've had a lot of quality time lately. Last Friday with the girls, Wednesday night Margaritas with L and A from my London friends, and then next weekend with D!  I'm happy I got out of my funk that held me for most of the winter, where I was basically a hermit and basically didn't see anyone but M. I've missed my friends :-)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

You Know What's Kind of Ridiculous?

The fact that I busted my butt at the gym for over a year consistently. At least 2-3 times a week, more likely 4X a week, doing videos, strength training with free weights and the nautilus machines, working at running programs, whatever. I felt good about myself, and loved (egotistical moment alert) looking at myself in the mirror, just because it constantly reminded me of how far I had come.

This summer, I didn't go to the gym very often. Maybe once a week. I spent a lot of my time hiking, running/walking outside, and especially in the last 2 weeks just being too busy to go to the gym. It happens, I'm ok with it. Part of this weight loss journey is living my life and not missing out on events and opportunities. I was still active, I still felt ok with my progress, and still went to the gym 1-2 times a week. I just found other things that I loved even more.

Ok so It took me probably 3-4 months before I started enjoying my time at the gym, and didn't feel like death every day. I started wanting to stay longer, and do more, and could seriously feel my endurance increasing every week.

So it's been about 2 weeks since I've worked out consistently thanks to sore muscles last week, and lots of moving the week before. I went to the gym last night, and honestly? It was the hardest I can remember it being.

I struggled to do 30 lunges, where 2-3 weeks ago I could do 45-50 no problem
I was starving the entire time, which may be because I didn't eat enough real food yesterday, and loaded up too much on sugar.
Either way, my time on the eliptical was miserable. My Heart rate was holding steady at 165-180, which isn't normal for me (when working out it normally stays within 150-169) and I was constantly out of breath. What happened to me?

Hopefully it's just a fluke. Hopefully I just didn't eat enough, so I hadn't fueled enough which made it 10 times harder to work out. At least I went, right? And I burnt 850 calories, so that was good. It gave me leeway to eat a big dinner and still have calories left over from my workout. It's just amazing that it can take months to get on track, but in as little as a week or two, your endurance levels can suffer so much!

I am forbidding myself any type of sweet or candy until Friday. If I have a loss this week, I'll let myself splurge a bit :-)  But I've had enough this week to last me, I've indulged, now it's time to stay on track. I've tracked breakfast, lunch and a snack already.

Totals8031212934461,584
Your Daily Goal1,5002065056322,500
Remaining697 85 21 22 -14 916
CaloriesCarbsFatProteinSugarSodium

I'm over my sugar limit (all the fruit) but everything else I'm in good shape for, I think!

I am going out with two of my friends from London tonight. There will be tons of talking, and I'm driving so I plan on milking that excuse :-) I will have two good beers though, and leave room for chips and salsa. We are going to a mexican bar after all :-) I am going to attempt that video again after work, I figure it's a good way to burn calories, and get a fast  workout in :-)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

So Much For Switching It Up

Because in order to have done that, I would have actually had to work out.

In my defense, I was so sore last week from that video. I don't know why I let myself do this. I'll do great for so long, and then have a week or two (or three... or a month) where I get lazy about going to the gym. In this case it was because I was doing a lot of stuff outside/helping people move/etc so I can't beat myself up that much. But the results are the same. I finally do something (in this case a video) and can't walk straight for 3 days. I think I need to get into yoga.

Anyways. Last week was also crazy busy workwise, which really hinders me wanting to go to the gym. All it makes me want to do is sit in front of the TV and watch shows. Which is what I did :-)

To recap:
Friday- no loss at weigh in. To be expected, I was still sore/ hadn't worked out much/ ate a decent amount the night before. Ah well
-After work I headed up to Worcester to my friends apartment for a girls night. She works for a college out there and had to check on a program they were running. which was a magician. And we ended up staying, because he was really funny.  We went back to her place, had drinks, relaxed, and went to bed. It was a nice night and well needed :-)
Saturday- We ended up going to Cracker Barrell for breakfast (@1...), which was amazing.  LOVE Cracker Barrell. I went a bit crazy BUT I only ate 2 slices of french toast, instead of the 4 put in front of me. So go me? I also ate the 2 eggs, 2 sausages and plate of hash browns, but that is besides the point ladies and gentleman. Baby steps.

I didn't get home till around 4, I ran to the store and picked up M, and some groceries. I made a frozen pizza and salad for dinner, and just relaxed a little bit before I babysit all night long. And caught up on mah shows: House Hunters, My First Place (I'm a sucker for Real Estate shows),Ugly Betty (they play reruns!), and watched the pilot for the Zoey Dechannel one that is coming out. It was cute, pilot's are never great so I have hopes that it will be funny :-)

Sunday-Slept in, went to Target, grabbed Lunch at Boston Market, where I made some bad choices. Like 800 calories worth. But the stuffing there is so worth it, isn't it? I figure I didn't have breakfast, so it sort of evens out, right? The rest of the day (when I planned to work out) was spent watching movies in bed. Buh. I did take a walk with M and tobes. But I wish I had done something activity wise :-/

Thankfully though dinner was low cal, so that made up for it :-) We attempted the Taco Cupcakes from emilybites.com. They came out awesome!

Doesn't do it justice!
And they were so delicious, I had them for lunch yesterday as well, which was seriously the highlight of my day haha.

I have had a serious sweet tooth this week. Last night I craved Ice Cream, today I had a donut with breakfast and reese cups with lunch.  I have 20 calories left for the day and it's not even dinner time! I am going to the gym, so I will be ok. I dunno what's up with these cravings but they need to quit it!

I'm done though, I think I satiated the beast :-P I went shopping on my lunch break and bought:
-A tote of apples (gala, aka the best)
-Green Grapes
-Bananas
-baby carrots (which go nicely with my low fat ranch dressing)
-pretzels (not the honey mustard flavored ones. I learned my lesson, they are way too addictive to have 10 feet away from me)
-popcorn
-ingredients to make bagel thin pizzas! These will be my lunch for the unforseen future. One thing I never get sick of is pizza, so hopefully this will stick!

I am also making a workout schedule, and I'm going to stick to it damnnit!My plan:
T-Strength-35 minutes cardio
W-Cardio Max (hopefully the next day won't be quite as miserable this time
Th-Eliptical/running combo (hopefully just 10 minutes eliptical and 30 minutes running, but well see) and abs
F- off- red sox game!


If I can get three full days in this week, I'll be happy!

Friday, September 9, 2011

Busy Busy Busy Busy

This week has felt like one of those commercials where you are standing there and everything is blurry around you because it is moving so fast. All thanks to work being insanely busy. So I apologize for the brevity of this post. To update:

- My legs are feeling the zillion squats and lunges that were part of the Cardio Max video. To the point where Wednesday and Thursday were a wash, as I couldn't work out with the pain. It wasn't a "oh my legs are sore but I need to keep on going" pain. It was a "standing up and sitting down are struggle points right now" pain. Owch. I did bring my pup for a lengthy walk yesterday, helping me not feel like a total waste of space.

-Mom turned the big 5-0 on Wednesday! I felt bad, because one sister was working and the other two are just starting school, so I was the only one home. and of course I was at work till 630. M came over and brought her chocolate turtles (NOM) and i brought her flowers and tiramasu (the woman didn't want a birthday cake. I think I did better). The sisters and I (as of right now it is 100% funded by me)  got her and my dad a weekend at a resort down the cape, thanks to living social. It's two nights right on the beach, with dinner, a massage, and 2 rounds of golf. She's so excited, I love it.

-I gained .6 today. I'm not happy about it, even though I know it's probably due to the muscle pain I'm experiencing, and the fact that I didn't work out much. It's my own fault, I know this happens every time I get lazy about going to the gym. But no more! I'm gonna go tomorrow or Sunday, and then 2x next week. And hopefully we won't be in this situation for awhile.

-Upon reflection, a lot of my days have been filled with food that I didn't necesarily need, but had the calories for. To curb this, I lowered my calorie intake to midway between 1 pound and 1.5 pounds a week- 1450. Where I work out so much, I normally have so many left over anyways that it'll help me manage my calories better, and stop the unnecesary add-ons to meals, which is truly my problem

-This weekend is quiet, which is good. Tonight I'm visiting my friend in Worcester. I am bringing a bottle of Skinny girl margarita (even with all the controversy, I doubt that it's gonna kill me faster than any other bottled beverage will, and the person who took the time to sue Bethany is ridic), a bottle of seltzer( I know, I'm like the only person on the planet who mixes her margaritas, but hey, its like tequilla soda. How can you hate that?) and plan on having a ball. Tomorrow I will work out at some point, possibly see an apartment (!!!) and then babysit. M is babysitting toby while the folks are away, both parties are excited for their playdate. Then Sunday M and I have a day of lying in bed watching movies and eating food planned. I may sneak a hike in there though ;-)

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Switching it Up

A big part of my focus in my weight loss journey has been trying to find ways to work out consistently. My biggest problem in the begining was that I would go to the gym 2-3 times a week and do the same thing over and over again.

I don't need to tell you this, but it gets boring.

It was a major reason why I couldn't get into a grove. I would dread going to the gym, and when I got there (if I got there) my workouts were half assed, and I wouldn't really try all that hard.

Two things changed this, and I really consider these two things instrumental to my success in this weight loss journey. They are:
1.Starting the C25K
2. Utilizing work out videos

The great thing about running is that it is never the same workout. Every run is completely different for me. So while It was doing the same thing 3x a week, it was different than busting it out on the eliptical 3X a week. I was working towards something, and every time was more challenging, or a better run, or a worse run, depending on the day. It was great, and got me to want to go to the gym, and more importantly, actually like going.

When I first started to work out consistently, I sucked it up and went on amazon, and bought the 30 Day Shred, the video that I was constantly hearing about on the boards. I didn't actually follow the system, went at my own pace, but used it once or twice a week, when I didn't feel like making it to the gym. It got me to work out on those days that I didn't want to work out, which was awesome.

I've hit road blocks in my quest to get healthy. Last fall I had excessive knee pain (which thanks to large amounts of squats and lunges I've completely rid myself of) which made me not want to work out at all. Thankfully this summer instead of just skipping the gym, I still went, did the eliptical (which now that I have some endurance isn't that bad, and I can actually get a decent workout on), and utilized hiking and videos to supplement my workouts, since my runs weren't working out (hopefully this is a thing of the past). I love that I don't just focus on one thing though, and I'm so glad I found a way to mix it up regularly to help keep my exercising fun and not a thing I dread doing 4X a week.

Unfortunetly, yesterday was one of those "Ugh there is no way I'm going to the gym" days. I forgot my headphones and sneakers, which meant I was going to have to drive all the way home, and then to the gym. And it was raining. And I had to work late, so it just wasn't happening. I talked myself out of working out at all but by the time I got home I decided to do a video. I tried one that I had bought a while back, but never used:
I had bought a bunch of biggest loser videos a few months back, but haven't really used them. Two of them I wasn't a huge fan of, and I just didn't bother to try the best. They were on sale at Marshall's, and I figured, I liked the 30 day shred, I loved Bob's bootcamp video, and the last chance workout, so why not?

So last night, to "switch it up", I tried this one. I did the warm up, level 1 and 2, and the cool down.

And honestly? It was a great workout! My back was bugging me so I didn't want to do much strength, but this was great for that, as it was almost all cardio. By the end of the 40 minutes (level 1 was 20, level 2 was 10 and then warm up/cool down) I had burned 457 calories, and was a sweaty mess. That is a full 157 calories more than I normally burn doing the shred, btw. I think I may have  found my new alternative to the gym :-)


Tuesday, September 6, 2011

What up Accountability

I apologize in advance for my rambling. My sleep wasn't great last night, and I am all sugar highed from my pumpkin iced latte/donut for breakfast (yes, I did it again).

But I am pleased to report that I had a pretty on plan weekend, and stuck to my schedule pretty well (give or take a few)

To recap:
-Friday, I went to dinner with my sisters. I got gnocchi with meatballs, and ate about 1/2. It was all kinds of amazing, and I was proud of myself to sticking to a serving. I had 2 beers afterwards, but only went over my calories for the day by a few

-Saturday we were up bright and early to move in the youngest sister. We didn't get home till almost 4, and I was exhausted so I didn't make it to the gym. But hey, I ate very little all day (bacon egg and cheese on an english for breakfast, trail mix for lunch, a turkey burger and salad for dinner), so I think that makes up for it! Plus moving is hard!

-Sunday, M and I had a stir fry for lunch, then went hiking with my other sister, where I burned just over 700 calories. Go me! I drank a lot that night, but the dinner (Chicken rollatini) was amazing, and low calorie, so I was still in my target for the day again! M and I went to a brewery over in cambridge, which was awesome, and then met 2 of my friends for a few drinks before we took the train home. It was quiet, but a nice night.

-Monday I intended to go to the gym, but M wasn't feeling well, so I did a "Marie is going to make ya feel better" day. We went to the zoo, got amazing ice cream, and made chicken alfredo for dinner. It was a nice quiet day. Plus we were walking around the zoo for 2 hours, so I figure that sort of makes up for it :-)

It feels like it was just Friday, doesn't it? I knew this weekend was going to fly, but I still can't believe how fast it came in. But I think overall I didn't go crazy, and more importantly I tracked everything. I have a really busy September, which will really test me as far as being responsible with my money goes, and as far as dieting goes. This weekend I was truly great, stayed on budget, and on plan, and I'm proud of that :-) But in September I have:
-A Kaiser Chiefs concert
-A Red Sox game
-Visiting our friend J in Worcester next Friday (which actually won't be expensive)
-Visiting my friend D in Stamford at the end of the month (which was cheap travel wise, but I will end up spending some money, you know?)

All things that cost money, and for the most part involve drinking/eating out. I am looking at this from a positive point of view though, and instead as an opportunity to resist temptation, and not go crazy everytime there is an event. I want to hit my goals for this month, instead of just making excuses as to why it is ok that I didn't. I have 35-40 pounds left, I want to get serious and stay on target. So this month will involve a lot of planning :-) To start:

Tuesday- spend an hour at the gym easing into strength/cardio. I haven't done any actual strength in about 2 weeks, due to being busy, working out outside, and then my back being irksome last week. But I don't want to be in pain for the rest of the week, so I won't be going crazy :-)
Wednesday-running outside
Thursday- more gymtime

Hopefully all goes to plan, and I'll be OP for the rest of the week!

Friday, September 2, 2011

Labor Day Gameplan

So I am all sorts of jazzed this morning thanks to this:
A lovely pumpkin iced coffee and donut from DD, The best start to a cooler morning.

I know I've posted about how much I love summer, but in reality, it isn't my favorite season.




Fall, is my favorite :-) There are just so many good things going on!
-PUMPKIN FLAVORED ANYTHING (coffee, food, beer, pie, did I mention beer?)
-Fall jackets (which I need a new one of)
-Boots (which are my favorite thing ever), tights,  fall dresses, sweaters
-Leaves changing (the thing I missed the most about being abroad fall 07, was missing fall in new england)

-Apple Cider
-brisk mornings
-no humidity!









-October baseball











-my birthday
-Halloween
-NH brewfest

I could go on. But I'll contain my excitement for now. I love summer, I love the feeling you get when it starts to become warmer, and the snow is a distant memory. But towards the end, I am ready to move on to fall. I hate when fall ends, I hate snow and winter, but I love the fall :-)

So a pumpkin iced coffee seems like an appropriate way to start off labor day weekend, especially where I lost .8 today! I figured I would treat myself to breakfast, As a bonus :-)

I was honestly pretty satisfied with just the donut. I was going to have my usual as well, but didn't feel like I needed it. I think I will add on my yogurt and berries to lunch instead. Healthy filling, etc etc.

My Overall Schedule for the Weekend:
Friday:
If I get out of work early, head to the gym. If not, maybe sneak in a quick workout when you get home.
Last dinner with the sisters :-( Enjoy delish italian food within reason
Depending on game plan, hang out, maybe have 1-2 drinks

Saturday:
 Up bright and early to help little sister move into her dorm (so sad)
Make healthy meal choices, no indulging!
Come home, gym/run and then grill with M
Babysitting

Sunday
Hiking with Sister and M
Relax, make this with M, alongside some rice,
go out for a date night! Our game plan is to go to the Cambridge Brewing Company, Boston Beer Works , and finally the Rock Bottom. each move is about a 20 minute walk, so that should be great for us :-)

Monday
Move other sister into college
Make healthy choices, be incredibly lazy all day, possibly include a walk for Toby :-)

I think it sounds like a fabulous game plan! Happy Long Weekend everybody!



Thursday, September 1, 2011

September 1!

SO. How have we done this month?
Calories by September 30
11269/15800
Pounds by September 30:
2.6/10 (womp womp)

Ok, you see it?

Good because I'm resetting it. I'm only 4500 calories away from my goal, and I'm definetly not gonna hit 10 pounds by September 30. Because I chose booze and candy over staying within my calories, basically.

But the past month has been good for me. I feel in control. And I haven't gained weight. If anything, I've gained muscle. I feel thinner, I can see a difference in my body from the begining of the summer. And that, to me is 10 times more important than hitting 190.

But I wanna get there! So Here are my September goals!


By September 30
Goal 110,000 Calories Burnt
Goal 24 Pounds
Goal 3Work out 16 times
Goal 4Pretrack 50% of meals and track everything!


Definetly attainable, if I work at it.I have a lot of things coming up this month (visiting my friend D, Red Sox game, Kaiser Chiefs concert, girls night), but I know if I plan ahead and resist temptation more than I have been, I can do it!

I also updated my financial goals for last month. Not a great month, but I am going to be better this month!