Rainy days definetly get you down

I started to post a blog yesterday, and got about a paragraph in writing about how sad I was with DBF being away, (we got into a fight Monday night because I called at 4am thinking it was 8 there. I lived in london for 4 months, how do I mess up the time difference. but he got really angry bc it was his grandmas funeral in a few hours)wah wah wah. I deleted it, and am starting fresh today, with a happier perspective. It's Wednesday, which means it's almost Friday! I am going to visit my friend danielle this weekend. Former roomate from college, and one of my best friends/ favorite people. I love her because we are so similar, so whenever I am feeling ridiculous, or am having a moment, I can call or text her and spill everything out, and she has never judged me, or gotten on a high horse. Her response is always something like "Oh my god I did the same thing last week" or "ugh I totally know what you mean, its the worst feeling". It's nice to have a friend that you can always rely on to not judge you, and to listen to your problems. Unfortunetly I've realized that a lot of my friends are really judgy sometimes. Like if I had told one of my friends J what DBF said to me, she would probably say "marie I think thats really unhealthy, you need to tell him to NOT talk to you like that, I think he's abusive blah blah blah" (I'm still a little bitter, about a year ago she did tell me he was abusive, because he called me a biatch when I was BEING a biatch. believe me, if you had seen the way I was acting that night, you woulda called me one too :-) )

Anyways. so visiting a good friend this weekend, who when I asked if I could come (I'll be honest, I didn't want to spend the weekend at home waiting for DBF to call, or hanging out with our mutual friends) without hesitation said absolutely. Then Monday I am leaving work at 4, and picking up DBF at the airport!!

Anyways. This week wasn't bad. I had the wedding on Saturday, which was beautiful, and an awesome time :-) I also only had a few drinks, and half my dinner, so I was happy with myself. Plus I think I danced off everything I put in haha. This week where I have been kind of sad, and it has been raining literally cats and dogs, I've been eating out for lunch (no food at home, and I really just don't wanna treck to the grocery store.). I've been making good choices though, yesterday I got this amazing buffalo mozzarella salad. De-licious.

Week 20 results (8/20/10) down 1.0, which I'm good with! The thing is, even when I make a poor choice, I realize I'm making it. I need to surround myself with better options, so I'm not tempted.

I've also made strides with C25K, I am now on week 6 day 2, the 10 3 10 run. I've decided I am going to stick with this guy, do it tomorrow night and maybe sunday when I get back, or over the weekend (her apartment does have a gym), and then Tuesday or Wednesday when I run again, I will do the 25 minute one. I don't know why this scares me so much, I did the 20, it was hard, but I felt amazing after (granted I took 2 30 second breaks, at the 10 and 15 minute marks. I was thirsty!!) I downloaded some new workout songs, so hopefully that will help. I think I'm starting to get bored.

Here is to an OP week, and a great WI!!

Sunkissed skin so hot ,we'll melt your popsicles...

I have that line repeating in my head, over and over again.

Sadly the heat is back in Boston. It was so nice out last week, not humid, just... perfect.

I am happy to report that i officially am back OP. I am tracking EVERYTHING (even the not so great stuff), resisting, and focusing on healthy eating and portions. Case in Point. I got home from the gym last night, and dinner was left out (a perk of living at home), chicken and mac and cheese. Back in the day, I probably would have finished off the pot of m&c. Last night I took a chicken breast, and measured out a serving (which was actually kind of a lot), and made some brocolli to keep me full. Such a good dinner, and it was kept under 10 points :-)

WLJ
Week 19 results (8/13/10)- stayed the same. It was bound to happen eventually, right? I was honestly just happy I maintained. Sadly the rest of that week didn't go so great (there was a donut that was unnecesary, and a very much non measured cup of pasta

I think that was the kick I needed though. My birthday is Oct 23, and I really want to be past my 10% goal (I'm about 6 away now) by then. Preferably by the begining of October.

The Bad:

• DBF got Wendy's on Saturday night (in his defense, he didn't get to eat dinner, and was starving when I saw him at like 11), so I got a double stack *hangs head in shame*. It was a splurge, but my burger from dinner was so burnt it was unedible, so all i had was salad and green beans. I had to dip into my weeklies, but I was ok with it.
• That's it!! so long gigantic list of "bad" things from the weekend! :-)

The Good:

• Ate OP (besides the wendy's) all weekend. I'm talking breakfast lunch and dinner, focusing on points
• DBF's parents got chinese food, I requested white rice, and ate the beef and veggies, chicken teriyaki and the rice. It was delicious, and a reasonable splurge
• I have tracked EVERYTHING. Even if I didn't wanna ;-)

That said, my week doesn't end till Friday. I babysat last night, which are normally downfall nights for me. I got a mini pizza from this place near work (seriously the size of a celeste pizza, and so crispy and good!), and had 3 chips ahoy cookies, which is soo much better than my normal splurges.

now, on to activity:
ACTIVITY:

• DBF was away friday night for the bachelor party, so I went to the gym and completed week 5 day 3. I took a 30 second break at the 10 minute (run) mark, and then kept on going, it felt awesome! I was soo proud of myself afterwards, and monday when I did week 6 day 1, the 5 minutes were like nothing. I do need to update my playlist though, the songs are getting old
• I hardcore cleaned my room all day saturday. I was sweating up a storm and needed to take water breaks, but my room looks awesome and I felt great for not just sitting around on my off day
• I am doing a video tonight, and c25k week 6 day 2 on Thursday. hopefully i can get to the gym before the wedding on saturday, if not week 6 will be finished on sunday.

Now for the bad news (and the reason I didn't finish this post yesterday): BF's grandmother died yesterday. He was (is) so upset, and I'm just so sad for him and his family. He is leaving tomorrow night and coming back the 30th, and I just wish I could be there with him. This also means he is missing Tom and Claudia's wedding on Saturday, which stinks because I have to go alone, but more because they are good friends of his, and I know how long he has been looking forward to it. The whole thing just sucks, really bad. I mean I'm going to miss him, but it's more I wish I could physically be there for him while he is dealing with the funeral and aftermath (BF is originally from Scotland, so he is flying there tomorrow night with his mom, and it'll be hard to contact one another). I'm just gonna make sure I am always with my phone these next 12 days, so if he calls or emails I am available for him.


Ah well, here's to better times ahead, right?

Dealing with Burning out

I feel like everyone at some point has that feeling of burning out. Tired from working out all the time, from eating "heathy" and feeling like your are constantly eating the same foods over and over and over... it gets difficult. I had a two month period where I was totally satisfied with my lunches and dinners, I was good about staying within my points, and not falling off the band wagon. Lately it's been the opposite. I find myself still hungry after meals, I indulge far too much on the weekends, and motivating myself to go to the gym has been a feat in itself. This past weekend this all cumulated. I went away for my friend's bachelorette party. I drank a ton, ate chips dips, pasta, burgers, bagels, you name it. And I felt crummy when I returned, and really pushed myself at the gym. So today I am starting over. I am staying OP for the day, and taking it one day at a time. I'm going to try new foods  (and not just say I'm going to try them), vary my workout schedule, and combat the temptations around me, focus on myself for a change :-)

First things first, my goal of 120 APs by labor day. I am at: 26/120

Week 18 (8/6/10) WI results: down 1.5, which is great, all things considered. I am still loosing, and I honestly have not been terrible, besides this weekend. I just feel a bit burnt out from dieting, and need some type of boost :-)

I have many opportunities to be good this week. Not a whole lot going on,  and next weekend DBF is going away for the bachelor party (whcih is slightly freaking me out. They are going rafting, like we did. And I'm sure they will be fine, but I just worry a bit) so I am going to shop, clean, and work out :-) \

Rafting was ... an experience. To say the least. It was a lot of fun, the only part that really scared me was when we fell off the raft, and I got stuck in teh rapids, they keep pulling you under, it's really tramatizing!  but after that it was a blast, a very good day :-) And night, might I add. yes, I drank a lot, but it was a great night

I'll check in again over the weekend :-)