Week Two (Oct 19-25)

I write to you camped out on my couch watching movies (started with Moonrise Kingdom, now were onto  Children Of Men). Looks like Sandy cancelled work for tomorrow too (NYSE is closed, so My investment company is  closed. Love it! The MBTA is closed too, so I really wouldn't have a way to get to work anyways haha) But in all seriousness, hopefully it's just really windy/rainy, and the severe damage is minimal. Matt and I have lasagna and cookies baked, and pork chops defrosted (the power seems to be staying on for the moment now) and lots of wine, cheese and crackers, and, in case the power goes out, yahtzee :) We are ready!

So first , a recap. I was up this week (204.8 eww), but I attribute that to my lack of effort, the crazy weather, and the birthday festivities. I think I limited the damage as much as I could as well, which I will give myself. I still need to do better though. I drank a lot this week, but I have tracked everything, and with all my activity points, I'm only under by 2 (before the wine tonight...).

Sigh. It's hard to eat right, isn't it? I weigh in on Thursday, and am going to try and do the best I can until then, and really make the effort next week. limited drinking, eating healthy, and working out (although that wasn't an area I struggled with this week).

1. Hit 2200 Calories burnt a week  (4 times a week): 2642
2. stay within my range at least 5 days a week.I rode the struggle bus with this
3. Eat 5 servings fruits and veggies Did ok with this
4. Try 4 new recipes - 1. Buffalo chicken potato skin
5. Limit eating out to one lunch and one dinner a week Ate out 2 dinners and 2 lunches
6. Limit drinking to twice a week, and dessert (over 100 calories, and that includes eating candy/dessert with lunch or as a snack as well) to once a week- ugh, drank Thursday, Friday, Tuesday

Sigh. This week really hasn't been much better, but there is still time. I'm hoping to get at least one more workout in this week (to bring me to 4) and focus on health Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday. I'm moving my weigh ins back to Fridays, to limit my thursday night drinkings. Hopefully that makes a difference in keeping me in control :)

The Birthday Dillemma

Anyone who has tried to lose weight knows that holidays are the hardest to maneuver. Mainly because you have to decide how to handle it. Do I go crazy, because it's just one day? Or do you try and stay in control, because it's just one day? See what happens? haha

My biggest problem, is that I totally allow taking that one day off to splurge to completely derail me, and then three weeks later, I'm left with some decision making and ideas on how I let myself fall off so terribly.

So this year, I had every intention to be good. Go out, not over drink, eat pretty well, etc, etc. And honestly, I didn't do badly. I only had 4 beers throughout the night (and mainly stuck to shots haha), and tracked everything.

But I was still left with a feeling of disappointment come Monday morning. Even though, I didn't do badly, I wasn't great, and I finally admitted to myself that I don't feel in control. And I honestly haven't in a really long time, probably since last November. I mean feeling in control for more than a week, or two weeks. Long term control, not wondering what I'm going to eat next, or how I sneak XYZ into my day without people seeing it.

So Monday, I made a big decision. Truly, HUGE. For the first time since last spring, I finally admitted that I wasn't in control, and I needed some rules and rigidness in order to truly follow a plan, and stick with it.

So I joined back Weight Watchers. I know, I know, how many times have we been here? I'm not going to bore you with my decision, how I made it, why, blah blah blah. It' works, I know it works, and I need to get serious, for real. I need some type of structure in order to really get on track, and not only make my weight loss goals, but make them last forever.

Sigh. It's not going to be easy, and it means making hard decisions and getting back to making sacrifices. But I know I can do it, and I plan on making it work :) Already since Monday I've felt more in control and more like my old self then I have in awhile. Hopefully we can make it stick.

Oh yea, my birthday was a lot of fun :-) Definitely one of my better ones. No drama, just a lot of friends having a good time, and then Matt took me out for burgers, beers and a movie (Argo, which was fantastic!) for the actual night. Friday we have a super fancy date night to finish celebrating, I can't wait!

Week One

Weight Loss- The scale said up 6... which I don't think is right. So I'm just going to take a pass :)

1. Hit 2200 Calories burnt a week  (4 times a week) -3 times with a whole lotta dancing :). Total Calorie burn- 2244 Just made it!
2. stay within my range at least 5 days a week -eh I could have been better about that
3. Eat 5 servings fruits and veggies- focused on eating fruits/veggies as a snack each day at work, (1 serving) a salad and a side of veggies with dinner (3-4 servings)
4. Try 4 new recipes- no new recipes this week
5. Limit eating out to one lunch and one dinner a week -Ate out lunch on Friday, Lunch on Saturday, and dinner on Saturday. Only one over
6. Limit drinking to twice a week, and dessert (over 100 calories, and that includes eating candy/dessert with lunch or as a snack as well) to once a week- drinks thursday and Friday, with one glass of wine on Tuesday. Dessert I had candy 2X this week. So I definietly could have done better with that.

So I didn't start this challenge until mid week. So I'm giving myself a break, and hoping to do better next week! This weekend I have my birthday celebration (joint with my sister). I'm not building up my birthday this year, so I plan on treating it like any other night, and hopefully staying within my calories :) And of course, lots of working out! Gym tomorrow after work, hiking hopefully Saturday, and gym Tuesday (and I hit the gym today, so I'm already ahead of the game!)

Busy

That's a good way to describe the past two weeks. To recap

• I really am going to post more, I promise
• I got back on the workout wagon, after all the sickness left and my hip started to feel better. My eating (admittedly) hasn't been the best. Lots of sneaking and drinking, and giving into temptation. Not okay. 
• Matt's friend got married last Friday. It was a lot of fun, but a lot of food and drink :) And I wish I could say I worked out to make amends, but I didn't. I was too hungover from a solo wine party on Thursday night to do anything but lie on the couch on Friday, and Saturday I was just damn tired, and had a TON of cleaning to do (which I did)
• I did work out Wednesday and Thursday of last week, and Sunday (so yesterday). Running total for this week so far (Thurs-Wed): 1550, so I should hit my 2000 goal
• I didn't work out today, I was tired, and not feeling great, and just wanted to lie on the couch. And honestly? Sometimes you need to lie on the couch :) I am going to bed early tonight and getting up at 6 to workout tomorrow morning, and going to do something on Wednesday morning too :-) So I'll get my 4 days in
• I tracked everything I ate today, honestly. And I was 400 in the hole. Sort of eye opening, and I think the big problem is my snacks. I'm eating a lot of processed foods, which aren't filling me properly. I'm spending tonight looking up healthy snacks :)

So As of my last weigh in (week before last) I was at 202. Which is down 3 from vacation a month ago. But I need to get back on track, because I'm tired of being overweight. I want to be "normal", and stop making excuses when people tell me how great I look, and instead say "Oh, thanks!"

I want to be able to run without XYZ hurting me because of the weight its putting on my hips/knees/ ankles

I just want to be better, you know?

So I'm doing a "challenge", because they tend to work about half the time (hey, it got me on track before vacation!) and I need some inspiration :-)
So the terms:
-4 weeks
-check in at least twice a week

My goals, between now and November 15 (which ironically is my next trip, to PA, to see my darling friend get married)
1. Hit 2200 Calories burnt a week  (4 times a week)
2. stay within my range at least 5 days a week
3. Eat 5 servings fruits and veggies
4. Try 4 new recipes
5. Limit eating out to one lunch and one dinner a week
6. Limit drinking to twice a week, and dessert (over 100 calories, and that includes eating candy/dessert with lunch or as a snack as well) to once a week

So there we go. Six goals, Check in twice as a week, and hopefully lose at least 4 pounds (and get below 200!) by Nov 15!