To start, I have to share my news: I fixed my laptop! I googled "Privacy Protection" and realized that that was the virus that was on my computer. So Happy, because I do not have the cash to get a new computer right now :-) You will start seeing more regular posts in the new year thanks to all this as well. And now, my 10 resolutions for 2012:
1. Hit My Goal Weight
First rule of successful weight loss is don't set a time limit on your goal. But I think it actually helps me to do so. Plus a year is a long time to lose weight, it's not like It's unrealistic either. In my first year (March 10- March 11) I lost 47 pounds. I am at 197.4 now, and my goal weight is 160 (and probably 155 after that), so I have 37.4 to go. Totally doable in a year. And even if I end the year 10 pounds away, I'll be happy :-) I just need to make my weight loss a priority (and I've been getting better about that lately.) I also think I may do a sugar fast next week. 5 days try and not consume anything that can be considered sugary : candy, cookies, chocolate, chips etc. I think it will help me stay on track, and not crave as much, for a little while anyways :-)
2. Run At Least One (if not two) Races
I haven't ran a race since March, thanks to the weird stomach cramps. The last few times I've ran I've done okay, and not had any cramps, so I am really going to make a push to get back into running again. I'm realizing as well that I don't have to run the whole thing. I just don't,ever. I am going to set a goal to run 7-9 minutes walk 1-2 and repeat until I finish. It will keep me from getting exhausted, and hopefully from cramping as well. If I do that, I think my running adventure will be a lot more successful, and I'll be able to race again. Tentatively, I'd like to do a race in either May or September, and in October for my birthday.
3. Make "Me" a Priority
If this year taught me anything, it's that I'm a people pleaser. I tend to do things that others want to do, instead of standing up for what I want to do, even if it means doing something I don't really wanna do. And I need to stop it, especially when it concerns people who walk all over me, and make big stinks/scenes when it comes to something I want, you know? I need to feel less insecure sometimes, and (to be honest) stop giving a shit what others think. Basically, I need to do me :-)
4. Better Myself
In that same regard, I want to work at myself this year. I want to work at being more confident and sure of myself. I want to be more "cultured", if you will. Go to Art galleries when I want to, see more plays, go to readings that interest me, concerts I want to see, and maybe even play a sport or two. I need to work on myself, and I feel like the confidence will come along with that.
5. Gossip Less
This one is self explanatory. I realized this year that I base a lot of my conversations talking about others, which to be honest, isn't all that healthy. I want to get away from that. Obviously everyone gossips a little, but I think a good goal for 2012 is to try to talk about others less, and be less malicious at times as a resul.
6. Get Involved with a Charity
I've already kind of started this, but I want to continue- I went to orientation for the Red Cross earlier this month, and plan to help out there every month, at least once. Right now it's the food pantry, I would like to get involved in the blood drives though, as time goes on. It's a great scenario, because it is on a as needed basis, and right now, I need to ease into it, and make more time for it as time goes on. So mini check on this one already
7. Live off a Cash Budget
You've heard the concept I'm sure. Every week I'll take X amount of the bank, and that will be all I spend. It's honestly how Matt got really good with his money, and saving, and I know it will help me. I'm great with planning, but when I have my credit/debit card handy, I spend way too much. And I know I can get away from that. So this weekend I am coming up with a plan, and my goal is by June/July to have weaned myself completely onto a cash budget (besides gas and bills).
8. Take One Big Trip
Besides little weekends away, I haven't really gone away somewhere since Florida 2 years ago. Matt and I plan to go to California next Fall for a wedding, so that is my goal. To save/scrunge/do whatver is possible to make sure that I get to go!
9. Try 25 New Recipies
And hopefully I will exceed this. I really want to work on my cooking skills in 2012, hone them in, and try new things. 25 = 2 a month and 3 in one month, totally doable!
10. Try at Least One New Thing Each Month
It can literally be anything (besides a recipie because thats cheating). Go somewhere I haven't been before on a day trip, try a new walking path, go to a new bar or restaurant, a new exercise class, etc. I am a self proclaimed creature of habit, and really want to try and get out of my shell and do more different things. So this is my final goal for 2012
I think all of these things are very achievable, and I'm actually really excited to work at it! I am making one change though- instead of every three months, I'm going to update every month, when I updated on my monthly goals that I do :-)
Weight Loss Journey!
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Christmas Recap!
So firstly I am going all out on my New Year's resolutions guys. Like all out. I am coming up with a list of 10 things I hope to accomplish in 2012. And every 3 months (So March, June, September, and finally December) I am going to check in on them, and see how I'm doing so far. It could be terrible, and I could compeltely forget. But I think it will help me focus on bettering myself throughout the year, and help me feel accomplished by the end of next year.
Because looking back on 2011, I could have done better, especially in the second half.
End of Year 2010: 223
End of Year 2011 (unless I have a large loss this Friday) 197.4: net loss 25.6 pounds
Which is like a half a pound a week, which is a lot better than what I figured that number would be!I feel so much lighter than I did this time last year, but my motivation has been so low,I don't feel nearly as focused. Lately though, this has been getting better. Running has been easier (no pesky cramps lately), and thanks to getting into morning workouts, I'm no longer coming up with reasons not to work out all the time. So Hopefulyl this is enough to get me back on track, and help me lose these last 40 pounds!
Anyways, Christmas was great, really nice to be with my family all day, and I did pretty well with controlling my eating/drinking as well! I got a great workout in on Saturday,which helped a lot. Matt and I did presents on Christmas Eve (Which I spend with his family). I got him two beer books, two beer kits (see a theme?), a travel mug, some tops (which he needs, the boy has so little that actually fits him!) and two movies- blades of glory and Talladega nights.
He got me: Tickets to see the Kaiser Chiefs in March (soo excited), a pretty red sweater which I'm wearing today:
Because looking back on 2011, I could have done better, especially in the second half.
End of Year 2010: 223
End of Year 2011 (unless I have a large loss this Friday) 197.4: net loss 25.6 pounds
Which is like a half a pound a week, which is a lot better than what I figured that number would be!I feel so much lighter than I did this time last year, but my motivation has been so low,I don't feel nearly as focused. Lately though, this has been getting better. Running has been easier (no pesky cramps lately), and thanks to getting into morning workouts, I'm no longer coming up with reasons not to work out all the time. So Hopefulyl this is enough to get me back on track, and help me lose these last 40 pounds!
Anyways, Christmas was great, really nice to be with my family all day, and I did pretty well with controlling my eating/drinking as well! I got a great workout in on Saturday,which helped a lot. Matt and I did presents on Christmas Eve (Which I spend with his family). I got him two beer books, two beer kits (see a theme?), a travel mug, some tops (which he needs, the boy has so little that actually fits him!) and two movies- blades of glory and Talladega nights.
He got me: Tickets to see the Kaiser Chiefs in March (soo excited), a pretty red sweater which I'm wearing today:
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| Pretty right? :-) |
Mad Men Season 2, It's Always Sunny Season 4, and a Biggest Loser Food Scale! Which I so wanted and am so excited to use :-)
So we did gifts, and drank and ate throughout the night, and eventually I headed home and went to midnight mass. I always love going to the Midnight Mass, but this year I was not a fan. For starters, they normally just have a few people singing a capella, which is partially what is so nice about it. But this year, they had the whole choir and band going. And the mass itself was extremely long (1:15), and elaborate. I've always loved the midnight mass because it's so quiet and serene, and more in tune with the Christmas spirit. It wasn't really like that this year :-/ In addition, I had awful heart burn from all the food I ate that night, so needless to say I was glad to go home at the end and just go to sleep.
The next day was filled with presents and family time. I got a Kindle Fire from my family!! I was so surprised and excited. I had a weird feeling that they were getting me a kindle (my mom had asked me about them) but I didn't expect a fire at all, so it was an awesome surprise.And I love it :-) I bought a book already (Bossypants) and have my google reader/ news sites uploaded to it, and plan to go to the library over the weekend to get a card (Boston Public library that is)so I can rent some books :-) I'm so excited! I also love it because even though it is like a computer screen, you can change the color of the page to off white, which makes it less harsh on your eyes :-)
After we got our act in gear, Matt came over to my place to say hi to my family, and exchange gifts, and then my mom, sisters and I went to my uncles house to visit for a bit before dinner. Dinner was prime rib, mashed potatoes, carrots and parsnip, green beans, and some of the most amazing scalloped potatoes ever.
After dinner we had some drinks, played some games, and then I headed back to my apartment with Matt around 10. It was an awesome Christmas and I was in high spirits... until I went into the bathroom.
I won't go into details, but basically someone had been putting dental floss down the toilet, which caused it to block the pipes, and when our neighbor would plunger our toilet would overflow and the water would come up in the tub. To call it gross was a massive understatement.
But the management company was great about getting someone out the next morning (it was Christmas night, after all. Apparently they did send someone out that night, but gave them the wrong apartment number and phone number. Like really?), and then a cleaning crew to take care cleaning the carpet (because it got soaked) and bleaching down the bathroom.
Matt's parents gave us a ton of bathroom stuff for Christmas, which is great considering it was all ruined :-( but at least it was a relatively easy fix, and I'm glad we have a management company that is so on top of everything. The lack of sleep and stress put both of us into a bit of a funk yesterday, so we had a lazy day and finished off Friday Night Lights (Great show btw), and organized our apartment.
I won't post a menu till Friday, just because with so much going on this week (babysitting tomorrow, friend's birthday on Thursday) Our meals will be quick and easy! Eating at home tonight and making soup for the week's lunches, taco pasta on Wednesday, and lettuce wraps on Thursday. We are having a New Years party on Saturday night, which I'm super excited for, but also looking at it as an opportunity to resist temptation. I'm going to make a low calorie drink for myself, and try and control eating as much as possible, and hopefully get a great workout in!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Pre christmas gym session? Check
1 hr total, 10min weights and running for 33 minutes. And i only walked 12 of them. 2.4 miles baby :-) now its time to drink:-) merry christmas!
Friday, December 23, 2011
You Know What Stinks?
When you work out 4 times, eat within your calories, and resist temptation
and you gain.
I was up to 197.4 today. I decided to switch my WI's to Friday again, but we'll get to that.
And I know, when you implement healthy habits, it might take awhile for your body to start losing, and for this to be reflected in the scale.
But that doesn't make seeing that high of a number any easier. I mean I had soup for dinner last night. Soup and a roll. (It was a filling soup haha). I had calories left over! I didn't even work out (Took a rest day),
But instead of eating my feelings, I did the 30 day shred. It wasn't the best workout (I hate level 3, the moves just don't work right for me), but I burnt 200 calories before work, so I'm not going to complain about that!I did treat myself to a bagel, but opted for light cream cheese and took most of it off before eating it. Back to basics :-)
Wednesday night Matt and I went to AT&T and took the plunge, got rid of my old contract and got a new smartphone. It's pretty and takes awesome pictures, so my blog will be a little better from it, I think :-)
Mini goals:
Meal plan:
B- Bruggers Bagel with 2 tbsp light veggie cream cheese (365)
L- unsure, probably a ceasar salad? Or maybe a light sandwich (between 400-500)
D- stew of some sort at home (I'll track before, don't go over 500)
A- 30 day shred (200)
S- wine! hopefull no more than 250-300 calories worth
Tomorrow-
B english muffin and an egg with cheese (300 calories)
L- light snack (200 calories)
D- apps with Matt's family, planning to stick to around 700-800 calories
A- gym with sister (hopefully a solid 800-900 calorie workout)
S- a few drinks :-) Plan to stay under 500
Today I'm going to:
-stick to my plan
-Only have a few glasses of wine tonight
-focus on my portions
This Weekend I'm going to:
-Work out, at least once on Saturday
-Moderate my drinks
-Focus on portion control and opt for healthy things
- Enjoy Christmas :-)
I'm working on my resolutions. But really, they are more goals for the next year. I'll post them next week :-) One is going to be to get rid of these last 35-40 pounds and hit my freaking goal!
Merry Christmas!!
and you gain.
I was up to 197.4 today. I decided to switch my WI's to Friday again, but we'll get to that.
And I know, when you implement healthy habits, it might take awhile for your body to start losing, and for this to be reflected in the scale.
But that doesn't make seeing that high of a number any easier. I mean I had soup for dinner last night. Soup and a roll. (It was a filling soup haha). I had calories left over! I didn't even work out (Took a rest day),
But instead of eating my feelings, I did the 30 day shred. It wasn't the best workout (I hate level 3, the moves just don't work right for me), but I burnt 200 calories before work, so I'm not going to complain about that!I did treat myself to a bagel, but opted for light cream cheese and took most of it off before eating it. Back to basics :-)
Wednesday night Matt and I went to AT&T and took the plunge, got rid of my old contract and got a new smartphone. It's pretty and takes awesome pictures, so my blog will be a little better from it, I think :-)
Mini goals:
Meal plan:
B- Bruggers Bagel with 2 tbsp light veggie cream cheese (365)
L- unsure, probably a ceasar salad? Or maybe a light sandwich (between 400-500)
D- stew of some sort at home (I'll track before, don't go over 500)
A- 30 day shred (200)
S- wine! hopefull no more than 250-300 calories worth
Tomorrow-
B english muffin and an egg with cheese (300 calories)
L- light snack (200 calories)
D- apps with Matt's family, planning to stick to around 700-800 calories
A- gym with sister (hopefully a solid 800-900 calorie workout)
S- a few drinks :-) Plan to stay under 500
Today I'm going to:
-stick to my plan
-Only have a few glasses of wine tonight
-focus on my portions
This Weekend I'm going to:
-Work out, at least once on Saturday
-Moderate my drinks
-Focus on portion control and opt for healthy things
- Enjoy Christmas :-)
I'm working on my resolutions. But really, they are more goals for the next year. I'll post them next week :-) One is going to be to get rid of these last 35-40 pounds and hit my freaking goal!
Merry Christmas!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I really need my computer back
It's starting to affect my posting! Sorry for the delay, here is my schedule:
Pretty basic, we managed to stock up on stuff we were low on, and buy ingredients for Christmas Eve dinner as well (we do apps at Matt's parents house), and still be under budget thanks to a low grocery week last week! I'm a firm believer that going in with a list really does save you a ton of money. That is one part of moving out I was afraid about, but on average to buy food for work, I was spending around 100 bucks a month on just lunch and dinners! I'm not able to get all 3 meals for a little bit over that (Our joint food budget is around 60 a week, so 120 per person each month)
It's been a busy few weeks, and I don't see it calming down until after christmas, and maybe even after new years! Last week work was insane, and combined with finishing up christmas shopping (all I have left is gift cards!) and having a million things to do after work each night, I may have thrown a mini fit on Saturday while picking stuff up, complete with crying over a messy kitchen :-) I'm better now, we spent some time cleaning up, and went to IKEA to buy storage things, so we have more places to put stuff, which is an awesome feeling! My goal for the next week is to get my pictures framed (they are being shipped as we speak!), and get the shelves built so we can finally get rid of the boxes of decorations lying around my apartment.
I had every intention of going to the gym yesterday, but made the mistake of eating string cheese, which upset my stomach. I'm thinking it may have gone bad. Or I need to take my prevacid when I wake up :-) Either way I didn't work out, which stinks. But I'll still get in 4 days (Friday, Sunday, todays workout, tomorrows workout) which is okay.Instead I made the most amazing pork. I'll sneak ya the recipe (ok ok it's not my recipe. But I found it, so that counts right?)
Spicy Asian Pork Tenderloin (adapted from myrecipes.com)
Ingredients:
Super easy right? It was amazing. Sweet and spicy at the same time. I marinated the pork (which I sliced into medallions) and put them in a frying pan with some peppers and onions. They came out so juicy, and crispy, I was really happy :-) I paired it with snap peas tossed in olive oil, salt pepper and parmesean, and some white rice. I felt so accomplished, which made up a little bit for not going to the gym :-)
While I haven't been excellent about my workouts this week (although I haven't been bad either) I do feel pretty good about my eating. I had my friend's holiday party on Friday, and caught myself eating too much, and took a step back, which is huge for me.I also stuck to my wine, which cut down a bunch of calories as well :-)
This was followed by a second NSV on Saturday night. Matt and I went out for a date night to this beer bar/ pizza place called Penguin Pizza. We had a groupon, and I'm so glad we did it finally, because the place was awesome! It was really cute inside, and the pizza (we got the steak and cheese) was awesome. Thin and crispy, and the toppings didn't over power it, which I loved. I hate pizza with too much topping on it, takes away from the pizza itself :-) I only had 2 slices, and a few really good beers. A great night, and a NSV for me! I did eat a third slice when I got home, but in my mind, it's better than eating 3 out and a 4th at home, or something else when I got home (I was pretty drunk, damn those belgian beers!)
My plan for the next few days is to plan ahead and make sure I stick to the plan! I'm not drinking until the weekend, since it'll be a drink heavy one (with Christmas and everything). I also made an egg hashbrown cassarole to last me the rest of the week. It's very similar to the egg hashbrown muffins emilybites makes, except I put it in a pan instead of cupcake form :-) It was a delicious breakfast, and really light in calories too! My goal is to stay away from treats this week, as hard as that may be. Gotta start sometime, right?
Happy Tuesday!
| Breakfast | Lunch | Dinner | workout | |
| Friday | egg/toast | pulled pork sandwich | holiday party | AM video |
| Saturday | n/a | pizza | pizza | off |
| Sunday | omelet/toast | chicken pot pie | video | |
| Monday | english muffin with peanut butter | leftover pot pie | pork tenderloin, roasted pot, snap peas | off |
| Tuesday | Egg/hashbrown casserole | ? | boston market | gym |
| Wednesday | Egg/hashbrown casserole | unknown | buffalo chicken mac and cheese | am yoga |
| Thursday | Egg/hashbrown casserole | leftover mac and cheese | chicken pot pie soup | gym |
Pretty basic, we managed to stock up on stuff we were low on, and buy ingredients for Christmas Eve dinner as well (we do apps at Matt's parents house), and still be under budget thanks to a low grocery week last week! I'm a firm believer that going in with a list really does save you a ton of money. That is one part of moving out I was afraid about, but on average to buy food for work, I was spending around 100 bucks a month on just lunch and dinners! I'm not able to get all 3 meals for a little bit over that (Our joint food budget is around 60 a week, so 120 per person each month)
It's been a busy few weeks, and I don't see it calming down until after christmas, and maybe even after new years! Last week work was insane, and combined with finishing up christmas shopping (all I have left is gift cards!) and having a million things to do after work each night, I may have thrown a mini fit on Saturday while picking stuff up, complete with crying over a messy kitchen :-) I'm better now, we spent some time cleaning up, and went to IKEA to buy storage things, so we have more places to put stuff, which is an awesome feeling! My goal for the next week is to get my pictures framed (they are being shipped as we speak!), and get the shelves built so we can finally get rid of the boxes of decorations lying around my apartment.
I had every intention of going to the gym yesterday, but made the mistake of eating string cheese, which upset my stomach. I'm thinking it may have gone bad. Or I need to take my prevacid when I wake up :-) Either way I didn't work out, which stinks. But I'll still get in 4 days (Friday, Sunday, todays workout, tomorrows workout) which is okay.Instead I made the most amazing pork. I'll sneak ya the recipe (ok ok it's not my recipe. But I found it, so that counts right?)
Spicy Asian Pork Tenderloin (adapted from myrecipes.com)
Ingredients:
- 1/4 C hoisin Sauce
- 2 tbsp chili sauce
- 1 tsp garlic
- 1 lb pork tenderloin
- salt pepper, paprika,
- 1 tbsp soy sauce
- 1/8 c korean bbq sauce
Super easy right? It was amazing. Sweet and spicy at the same time. I marinated the pork (which I sliced into medallions) and put them in a frying pan with some peppers and onions. They came out so juicy, and crispy, I was really happy :-) I paired it with snap peas tossed in olive oil, salt pepper and parmesean, and some white rice. I felt so accomplished, which made up a little bit for not going to the gym :-)
While I haven't been excellent about my workouts this week (although I haven't been bad either) I do feel pretty good about my eating. I had my friend's holiday party on Friday, and caught myself eating too much, and took a step back, which is huge for me.I also stuck to my wine, which cut down a bunch of calories as well :-)
This was followed by a second NSV on Saturday night. Matt and I went out for a date night to this beer bar/ pizza place called Penguin Pizza. We had a groupon, and I'm so glad we did it finally, because the place was awesome! It was really cute inside, and the pizza (we got the steak and cheese) was awesome. Thin and crispy, and the toppings didn't over power it, which I loved. I hate pizza with too much topping on it, takes away from the pizza itself :-) I only had 2 slices, and a few really good beers. A great night, and a NSV for me! I did eat a third slice when I got home, but in my mind, it's better than eating 3 out and a 4th at home, or something else when I got home (I was pretty drunk, damn those belgian beers!)
My plan for the next few days is to plan ahead and make sure I stick to the plan! I'm not drinking until the weekend, since it'll be a drink heavy one (with Christmas and everything). I also made an egg hashbrown cassarole to last me the rest of the week. It's very similar to the egg hashbrown muffins emilybites makes, except I put it in a pan instead of cupcake form :-) It was a delicious breakfast, and really light in calories too! My goal is to stay away from treats this week, as hard as that may be. Gotta start sometime, right?
Happy Tuesday!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
| To start, an updated plan: Plan for week | ||||
| Breakfast | Lunch | Dinner | workout | |
| Friday | egg & english muffin | Leftovers | cpk frozen pizza | gym- cardio/strength |
| Saturday | burrito bowl | Asian Peanut Noodles ( ST) | walk with dog/Matt | |
| Sunday | bacon egg and cheese sandwich | movie theather popcorn, small fries | Ham And Cheese Sandwich | Walk dog |
| Monday | cinnamon raisin english muffin with smart balance butter | leftover steak pie | Cheeseburger stir fry, baby potatos | off |
| Tuesday | cinnamon raisin english muffin with smart balance butter | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Asian Chicken Lettuce Wraps (EB) | gym- cardio/strength |
| Wednesday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | pasta with meatsauce, veggies | AM Video- strength/yoga |
| Thursday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Pulled Pork Sandwiches (CYSFD) | gym- cardio OR video |
I had to switch some stuff around, due to my schedule and the like. Still basically the same :-) I had a pretty good weekend staying OPwise! I didn't go overboard, stuck to my plan, and actually worked out Friday, and walked on Saturday and Sunday. One thing I didn't do great on was pre tracking, and as a result I went over a bunch. But I still made relatively smart decisions, and would say this was one of my best weekends in awhile :-)
Friday night Matt and I had a "date night" where we actually went out haha. It was a lot of fun, we we're supposed to make asian peanut noodles, but Matt wasn't feeling great when he got home, so we ended up just having a frozen pizza instead, and some apps. We went out for drinks at the Sunset, which is one of my favorite bars in Boston. It's just such a cool place, and has a great vibe to it. We had a lot of fun hanging out, trying different beers, and enjoying each other's company. Love date night :-)
Saturday was supposed to be a cleaning day, but that got derailed. I had to get up early (which was hard considering I didn't get to bed till 2) for an orientation at the Red Cross. I decided a month ago that I want to get involved more, and found the opportunity to join the RC and volunteer whenever I can, which is really the best for my schedule. I was so late to the orientation (I got lost and realized after that I drove by it like 3 times!) but ended up hearing the portion I wanted to hear, and got added onto the volunteer list, so it was worth it :-)
I did get to clean up a bit, and then Matt and I headed back to my home to puppy sit. My dogs arthritis has been acting up lately, and my parents we're going away this weekend, so they asked that I would spend the night and just watch him. It was actually good, because it gave us a chance to run some errands around our home, and just hang in. We watched Saving Private Ryan, which I had never seen, and just chilled with my puppy. I was so tired, I was falling asleep by like 1130 haha, so it was a good night to hang in :-)
I think because I went to sleep so easy on Saturday night, I woke up at 9 on sunday and couldn't sleep. So I grabbed the dog and brought him for a nice long walk (his arthritis was doing a lot better by Saturday, he was running around the house!). It was good for both of us, I love getting up early on Sunday mornings, it's so peaceful :-)
The rest of the day, not so peaceful. I went to see New Years Eve with some friends (I don't know why I expected it to be better, my friends liked it, but It could have been better I think), and then christmas shopping, which was insane at the mall and reminded me why I do most of my shopping online :-) But it was fun to get to hang out with them and catch up :-)
So a quiet yet eventful weekend :-) I did have some slip ups (the peanut noodles were awful, so we ended up splitting some BK, and I got fries at the mall) but overall I could have done worse, and got some activity in, so I'm hopefully that I'll be able to keep it up!
One thing I'm super excited about is running. I've had two runs so far and (fingers crossed) no stomach cramps! I was talking to my friend a few weeks ago about it all, and she mentioned that maybe it was because I was eating too far away from my workout. She suggested I try having a small snack an hour before working out, and see what happens. And It worked! So hopefully we can keep this up!
There was so much I wanted to do this weekend, and yet none of it got done. I have Christmas presents to make, food to bake, and so much cleaning to get done. And I need to fix my computer! I know It'll get done, it just makes this week so much busier now, which isn't fun. I need to work on my time management :-)
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Oh Hey There Hypocrisy
If that's even your real name!
I gained today. Up to 195.4. Not going to even talk about it. Because after everything that I posted about yesterday, guess what I did?
After work, I went grocery shopping, and realized I was hungry and wanted to workout. I could have gotten an apple, or even a bag of popcorn or pretzels to satisfy me.
Nope, I got Reeses. And then after that when I realized I had forgotten to grab pumpkin, I stopped at Walgreens, and grabbed some fig newtons. Because my heart burn was outrageous yesterday, and the reeses didn't help. I also grabbed some diet ginger ale.
I tried to estimate how many calories. It wasn't easy, and to be honest, it doesn't matter, because I know I went over.
I did work out, even if it was only 20 minutes, it was something.
So at this point I can do two things:
1. Feel sorry for myself, fall off further, and never fully get out of this funk and have another 6 months where I'll be on one week and off the next.
OR
2. Feel bad for myself, then move on. Buy healthy snacks for work, and focus on being 100% OP this week.
I'm going to go with number two. Here is the feel bad part:
-I'm wearing my sisters old jeans, and they fit funny. And are low, which is making me feel bloated and large. I'm having major digestive issues (probably from the lack of fruit in my diet) and am PMSing like crazy. Which doesn't help things. I'm tired as that effing wind storm woke me up last night. I had more fig newtons for breakfast because I was running late. Luckily there are worse things to binge out on. I still can't believe how hypocritical I acted yesterday, posting about everything and then giving in not even 3 hours later. Sucks.
Ok, done with. Over. I'm putting it out there. Tracking my weight. Owning up to everthing.
I may give myself an extra day off next week. Maybe Tuesday. We'll see. I'd rather plan for more than plan for less and not meet them all. But I am very excited for the meal planning. BTW
ST-Skinny Taste
EB- Emily Bites
CYSFD-Can you stay for dinner?
Happy Thursday! I'll be on plan this weekend, but I plan on enjoying my date night tomorrow night. Matt is cooking me noodles and then we are going to our favorite bar. I'm excited!
I gained today. Up to 195.4. Not going to even talk about it. Because after everything that I posted about yesterday, guess what I did?
After work, I went grocery shopping, and realized I was hungry and wanted to workout. I could have gotten an apple, or even a bag of popcorn or pretzels to satisfy me.
Nope, I got Reeses. And then after that when I realized I had forgotten to grab pumpkin, I stopped at Walgreens, and grabbed some fig newtons. Because my heart burn was outrageous yesterday, and the reeses didn't help. I also grabbed some diet ginger ale.
I tried to estimate how many calories. It wasn't easy, and to be honest, it doesn't matter, because I know I went over.
I did work out, even if it was only 20 minutes, it was something.
So at this point I can do two things:
1. Feel sorry for myself, fall off further, and never fully get out of this funk and have another 6 months where I'll be on one week and off the next.
OR
2. Feel bad for myself, then move on. Buy healthy snacks for work, and focus on being 100% OP this week.
I'm going to go with number two. Here is the feel bad part:
-I'm wearing my sisters old jeans, and they fit funny. And are low, which is making me feel bloated and large. I'm having major digestive issues (probably from the lack of fruit in my diet) and am PMSing like crazy. Which doesn't help things. I'm tired as that effing wind storm woke me up last night. I had more fig newtons for breakfast because I was running late. Luckily there are worse things to binge out on. I still can't believe how hypocritical I acted yesterday, posting about everything and then giving in not even 3 hours later. Sucks.
Ok, done with. Over. I'm putting it out there. Tracking my weight. Owning up to everthing.
| Plan for week | ||||
| Breakfast | Lunch | Dinner | workout | |
| Friday | egg & english muffin | Leftovers | Asian Peanut Noodles ( ST) | AM yoga |
| Saturday | English mufin | burrito bowl | stir fry | walk with dog/Matt |
| Sunday | egg/ english muffin | n/a, small snack during day | unsure- at parents | AM video |
| Monday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Carne Guisada (Beef Stew, ST), rice | gym-cardio/strength |
| Tuesday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Pulled Pork Sandwiches (CYSFD), sweet potato fries, salad | Gym- cardio |
| Wednesday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Asian Chicken Lettuce Wraps (EB) | AM Video- strength/yoga |
| Thursday | egg/hashbrown cups (EB) | Ziti Spinach Pasta Bake (ST) | Steak and cheeses (with leftover stew beef), oven fries, snap peas | gym-cardio/strength |
I may give myself an extra day off next week. Maybe Tuesday. We'll see. I'd rather plan for more than plan for less and not meet them all. But I am very excited for the meal planning. BTW
ST-Skinny Taste
EB- Emily Bites
CYSFD-Can you stay for dinner?
Happy Thursday! I'll be on plan this weekend, but I plan on enjoying my date night tomorrow night. Matt is cooking me noodles and then we are going to our favorite bar. I'm excited!
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
The "Old" Me
"What did the old you used to over indulge on? "
This question was posed on the Weight Watcher boards today, and while I don't like thinking of my past as the "old me" (because I'm still the same person, basically), it got me thinking.
I've changed a lot in the past five years. I'm a lot more independant than I used to be (I used to rely on others for self satisfaction, instead of trying to be self sufficient, and basically did whatever others wanted me to do), and I owe my time in London to that, because going abroad knowing no one and being forced out of my shell and to depend on no one but myself did a lot for me.
I got back from London and felt like a different person. I was self assured, confident (thanks to my 20 pound weight loss haha) and excited to continue exploring and learning about myself and my world around me (as corny as that sounds). And then I went back to FU, where I was constantly made to feel inadequate by others, and that new found confidence vanished. I missed my abroad life, or even my home life. It was the first time I was truly honest with myself: I wasn't very happy there.
I took solace in food, and just felt lost. I had my friend D (and this was the semester that we became really tight), but I missed my boyfriend, and my family and friends from home. I missed my london friends, and my life. I hated being surrounded by people who didn't "get" me, and more importantly, had no interest in getting to know me, at all.
I can't help but wonder if I hadn't lost my confidence, and instead had it built up further, would I have regained the weight, or would my WW starting point have been 220 instead of 258? I'll never know, but sometimes its fun to look back on how much things have changed. Even in the last year, I have such different priorities than I did in the past. And I think, overall, that is a good thing. I managed to have so much success on WW because I made my health a priority. Sure, I wanted to candy bar, or that extra beer, or the extra serving, but I didn't need it. And having it wasn't going to help me lose any faster. I was so good about it! It was great!
So lets backtrack a little bit. Everyone has their reasons for gaining weight and needing to lose. Here is what got me here
- I used it as a crutch: I would eat when I was sad. A lot. Good food made me feel better, and helped me forget being sad, or feeling down on myself.
-I would horde food... When I was 8, it was cheese. I would take a handful of slices and hide them while I ate them. That transferred to hiding cookies/candy/bread/ whatever, to eating food on my way to places so that people didn't see me do it. A bad habit to be in.
-And I would add it on: Grabbing a coffee? add on that donut! Grabbing my meds from CVS? I deserve the reese cups right? Grocery shopping? I mean they put the candy right there... And it's always king sized too!
Of course I did other things too. Portion sizes were never my forte either, but these three are the main triggers I can think of. And when I reverted from confident independant Marie to nervous, uncomfortable Marie, these habits came right on back. I won't get into details, but it's no surprise that combined with new relationship happy weight, I was in denial about puffing out almost 260 pounds.
With a change in my diet, and working my way away from these bad habits, back came my confidence. I stopped letting others walk all over me. I tried to meet new people, and work on myself. Basically, I made myself a priority, health included.
So what happened the past 5 months? Why did I fall off? (And I did fall off. The hiding of the food and the add ons were back. With a vengance)
I think it was partly me needing a break from everything, and partly me not prioritizing. I was putting going out over workouts, because people we're guilting me. I was putting going out over healthy eating, again because I was giving into pressure. But there will always be pressure to go out, and to not do my best. That's not an excuse though. Instead, I used it as one, and gave into that slippery slope. I started to revert back to my "old self", and get back into the bad habits that I worked so hard to erradicate from my life.
I even noticed I've been a lot more nervous than I used to be, and unsure of myself for whatever reason. Why the two go hand in hand I don't know. I think when I'm on plan I feel stronger, and more self assured, which translates into my day to day life.
When I'm off, even when it's of my own accord, I feel like I'm failing, which makes me less confident, and scared.. Isn't it funny how the two things correlate so well? I never really noticed it before!
So that is the old me. But I hate that term, because those aspects of me will never truly go away. They will always be there to rear their ugly head from time to time. How I handle those occurances is the important part though :-)
And as sad as it is, some parts of my "old self" will still always be there. I think my entire life I will have these behaviors come back, and I will constantly have to fight it, and work hard to stay on track and better myself.
This question was posed on the Weight Watcher boards today, and while I don't like thinking of my past as the "old me" (because I'm still the same person, basically), it got me thinking.
I've changed a lot in the past five years. I'm a lot more independant than I used to be (I used to rely on others for self satisfaction, instead of trying to be self sufficient, and basically did whatever others wanted me to do), and I owe my time in London to that, because going abroad knowing no one and being forced out of my shell and to depend on no one but myself did a lot for me.
I got back from London and felt like a different person. I was self assured, confident (thanks to my 20 pound weight loss haha) and excited to continue exploring and learning about myself and my world around me (as corny as that sounds). And then I went back to FU, where I was constantly made to feel inadequate by others, and that new found confidence vanished. I missed my abroad life, or even my home life. It was the first time I was truly honest with myself: I wasn't very happy there.
I took solace in food, and just felt lost. I had my friend D (and this was the semester that we became really tight), but I missed my boyfriend, and my family and friends from home. I missed my london friends, and my life. I hated being surrounded by people who didn't "get" me, and more importantly, had no interest in getting to know me, at all.
I can't help but wonder if I hadn't lost my confidence, and instead had it built up further, would I have regained the weight, or would my WW starting point have been 220 instead of 258? I'll never know, but sometimes its fun to look back on how much things have changed. Even in the last year, I have such different priorities than I did in the past. And I think, overall, that is a good thing. I managed to have so much success on WW because I made my health a priority. Sure, I wanted to candy bar, or that extra beer, or the extra serving, but I didn't need it. And having it wasn't going to help me lose any faster. I was so good about it! It was great!
So lets backtrack a little bit. Everyone has their reasons for gaining weight and needing to lose. Here is what got me here
- I used it as a crutch: I would eat when I was sad. A lot. Good food made me feel better, and helped me forget being sad, or feeling down on myself.
-I would horde food... When I was 8, it was cheese. I would take a handful of slices and hide them while I ate them. That transferred to hiding cookies/candy/bread/ whatever, to eating food on my way to places so that people didn't see me do it. A bad habit to be in.
-And I would add it on: Grabbing a coffee? add on that donut! Grabbing my meds from CVS? I deserve the reese cups right? Grocery shopping? I mean they put the candy right there... And it's always king sized too!
Of course I did other things too. Portion sizes were never my forte either, but these three are the main triggers I can think of. And when I reverted from confident independant Marie to nervous, uncomfortable Marie, these habits came right on back. I won't get into details, but it's no surprise that combined with new relationship happy weight, I was in denial about puffing out almost 260 pounds.
With a change in my diet, and working my way away from these bad habits, back came my confidence. I stopped letting others walk all over me. I tried to meet new people, and work on myself. Basically, I made myself a priority, health included.
So what happened the past 5 months? Why did I fall off? (And I did fall off. The hiding of the food and the add ons were back. With a vengance)
I think it was partly me needing a break from everything, and partly me not prioritizing. I was putting going out over workouts, because people we're guilting me. I was putting going out over healthy eating, again because I was giving into pressure. But there will always be pressure to go out, and to not do my best. That's not an excuse though. Instead, I used it as one, and gave into that slippery slope. I started to revert back to my "old self", and get back into the bad habits that I worked so hard to erradicate from my life.
I even noticed I've been a lot more nervous than I used to be, and unsure of myself for whatever reason. Why the two go hand in hand I don't know. I think when I'm on plan I feel stronger, and more self assured, which translates into my day to day life.
When I'm off, even when it's of my own accord, I feel like I'm failing, which makes me less confident, and scared.. Isn't it funny how the two things correlate so well? I never really noticed it before!
So that is the old me. But I hate that term, because those aspects of me will never truly go away. They will always be there to rear their ugly head from time to time. How I handle those occurances is the important part though :-)
And as sad as it is, some parts of my "old self" will still always be there. I think my entire life I will have these behaviors come back, and I will constantly have to fight it, and work hard to stay on track and better myself.
Monday, December 5, 2011
I Have A Defense, I swear!!
I didn't just abandon all my "changes" that I posted about. Between a crazy busy week at work, and a virus ridden home laptop. I haven't had time to post. Once I get my computer working again I will get back on my tracking! Also, If any of you are computer geniuses out there, any advice would be greatly appreciated. My McAfee scan tells me I have 0 viruses, but the "privacy protection" my computer has says there are 90. And my firefox won't open. Ugh, it's so frustrating. I paid for McAfee for a reason!
Anyways, as far as updates go:
-I was sick Wednesday-Sunday. Like hacking up a lung sick. Drinking didn't help, but I sadly did it anyways (dumb) I didn't go crazy though, especially Saturday night I restrained msyelf :-) Thankfully A lazy Saturday filled with Friday Night Lights (Season 4 is so good) and chinese food seemed to help. As did shopping and a home cooked meal last night. And lots of sleeping :-)
-I did WI on Thursday, and lost 3.2! I couldn't believe it, because all week I had felt so large, and the scale was saying scary numbers. I even complained to Matt on Wednesday night about how I was trying so damn hard and not seeing any results, if anything I was gaining. So to get that validation was nice.
Overall, I could have done better this weekend, but I also could have been a lot worse. Mainly Friday night was a bit calorie heavy, but Saturday I resisted snacking and even went for a nice long walk (which burnt 350 calories) and Sunday I had a nice filling breakfast, a 30 minute walk with the puppy, and an awesome steak dinner with my parents, so I was in really good shape by the time night came around :-) I'm optomistic for the rest of the week. I wish I did more fitness wise this weekend, but at the same time I know it was for the best, because if I had pushed myself I may have still been sick!
Hopefully I can get my computer situation figured out soon, and I will post more frequently!
Anyways, as far as updates go:
-I was sick Wednesday-Sunday. Like hacking up a lung sick. Drinking didn't help, but I sadly did it anyways (dumb) I didn't go crazy though, especially Saturday night I restrained msyelf :-) Thankfully A lazy Saturday filled with Friday Night Lights (Season 4 is so good) and chinese food seemed to help. As did shopping and a home cooked meal last night. And lots of sleeping :-)
-I did WI on Thursday, and lost 3.2! I couldn't believe it, because all week I had felt so large, and the scale was saying scary numbers. I even complained to Matt on Wednesday night about how I was trying so damn hard and not seeing any results, if anything I was gaining. So to get that validation was nice.
Overall, I could have done better this weekend, but I also could have been a lot worse. Mainly Friday night was a bit calorie heavy, but Saturday I resisted snacking and even went for a nice long walk (which burnt 350 calories) and Sunday I had a nice filling breakfast, a 30 minute walk with the puppy, and an awesome steak dinner with my parents, so I was in really good shape by the time night came around :-) I'm optomistic for the rest of the week. I wish I did more fitness wise this weekend, but at the same time I know it was for the best, because if I had pushed myself I may have still been sick!
Hopefully I can get my computer situation figured out soon, and I will post more frequently!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Changes, Updates, and Planning
So I finally found that sneaky motivation that has been MIA this fall. No idea where it was, but I'm going to go with inside that thanksgiving turkey :-) Or maybe I just got tired of seeing bigger numbers on the scale. My full on recognition came on Sunday, when I was hiking. It made me realize 1. How much I missed hiking with my sisters, and 2. that I'm not done yet. I want to get fitter, healthier, thinner. I still have a ways to go, and I need to start doing better again, for real. Not just talking about it. I need to get strict again.
One thing I never understood was the mentality of "you can eat whatever you want on weight watchers". Because when I do that, I don't lose. I think WW was great for teaching me that I didn't have to starve myself, but it also taught me about making choices, and limiting indulgences to when they are actual indulgences, or treats. And not just something I eat everyday. When I was doing well on WW, I was only eating dessert 2-3 times a week. I was only drinking 2X a week, and one of those times was 1-2 beers. I would eat my hamburger topless (hehehe), without the top bun, and portion things out ahead of time, so that I wouldn't accidentally eat more than a serving size. To me, that isn't eating anything I want. That's following a plan and restricting yourself, however slightly, to make effective change.
I understand what the saying means, it was just always something that never registered with me, because to me, effective weight loss is restricting certain things, and following a plan. And that is what I'm getting back to. Portioning out food, planning ahead, limiting "treats"
So in that realm, here are some changes I'm making:
And I have some updates as well...
-Thanksgiving was great. I combated the dreading snacking by going to see the Muppetts with my sisters. Great movie, family bonding, what more could you ask for? The food was amazing too, and we had so much left over! My mom gave us giant ham steaks (bc my dad doesn't eat turkey, so naturally she bought an entire ham) so we have been using them to go along with our breakfasts (cut up of course)
-I managed to work out Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Sunday's workout was a whopping 865 calories, thanks to a 2 hour hike. I felt so awesome afterwards. Oh , and guess who left her HRM at the bottom of her laundry basket. Best find ever!
- I did no shopping this weekend. Well that's a lie, I bought clothing for myself. Whoops. Now I'm onto holiday mode. And I have no freaking idea what to get anyone. But this is rare, normally I do all my shopping online this weekend, and I'm pretty much set for the holidays.
-I made an eggplant parm soup last night after dinner. From scratch (like boiled boullion to make stock). It was way more work than I had hoped for, so hopefully it's tasty! But I'm excited to have so much of it- Lunch for the week for Matt and I!
-I've updated my financial and weight loss goal pages on here, for once. I'm back to hard core budgeting (I knew November would be a wash with all the moving) and work out goals. Lets get it!
Happy Tuesday! Now if only my sinus issues would go away!
One thing I never understood was the mentality of "you can eat whatever you want on weight watchers". Because when I do that, I don't lose. I think WW was great for teaching me that I didn't have to starve myself, but it also taught me about making choices, and limiting indulgences to when they are actual indulgences, or treats. And not just something I eat everyday. When I was doing well on WW, I was only eating dessert 2-3 times a week. I was only drinking 2X a week, and one of those times was 1-2 beers. I would eat my hamburger topless (hehehe), without the top bun, and portion things out ahead of time, so that I wouldn't accidentally eat more than a serving size. To me, that isn't eating anything I want. That's following a plan and restricting yourself, however slightly, to make effective change.
I understand what the saying means, it was just always something that never registered with me, because to me, effective weight loss is restricting certain things, and following a plan. And that is what I'm getting back to. Portioning out food, planning ahead, limiting "treats"
So in that realm, here are some changes I'm making:
- To keep me accountable, I'll be posting the following:
- A weekly post on either Monday or Tuesday which will review my weekend, and plan ahead for the week!
- Recipe Reviews on either Sundays or Wednesdays
- Weighing In On Thursdays, which I will post every Thursday (with a better name)
And I have some updates as well...
-Thanksgiving was great. I combated the dreading snacking by going to see the Muppetts with my sisters. Great movie, family bonding, what more could you ask for? The food was amazing too, and we had so much left over! My mom gave us giant ham steaks (bc my dad doesn't eat turkey, so naturally she bought an entire ham) so we have been using them to go along with our breakfasts (cut up of course)
-I managed to work out Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Sunday's workout was a whopping 865 calories, thanks to a 2 hour hike. I felt so awesome afterwards. Oh , and guess who left her HRM at the bottom of her laundry basket. Best find ever!
- I did no shopping this weekend. Well that's a lie, I bought clothing for myself. Whoops. Now I'm onto holiday mode. And I have no freaking idea what to get anyone. But this is rare, normally I do all my shopping online this weekend, and I'm pretty much set for the holidays.
-I made an eggplant parm soup last night after dinner. From scratch (like boiled boullion to make stock). It was way more work than I had hoped for, so hopefully it's tasty! But I'm excited to have so much of it- Lunch for the week for Matt and I!
-I've updated my financial and weight loss goal pages on here, for once. I'm back to hard core budgeting (I knew November would be a wash with all the moving) and work out goals. Lets get it!
| Plan for week | |||||
| Day | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday | Friday |
| Lunch | Turkey BLT | Eggplant Parm Soup with slice of french bread>>> | |||
| Dinner | Buffalo Chicken Bites with roasted pot/veg | cheesy taco pasta | brats w/ aspara | 1/4 lb burger, sweet pot fries, veggie | steak stir fry |
| workout | rest | 1/2 cardio (elipt) and 1/2 strenght | yoga/video (morning?) | cardio (run/walk), strength | morning yoga |
Happy Tuesday! Now if only my sinus issues would go away!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Namaste
So after months of talking about it (as you all know haha) I finally did it.
This morning I got up 40 minutes early, and worked out.
But let me back track a bit.
So I did make it to the gym last night, and had a great strength workout alongside some cardio (mainly walking on an incline, with a little running although my indigestion was terrible so it wasn't too much!)
It hurt, a lot. That's what I get for only doing cardio/videos for like, a month. But it was a good hurt (ok some of it wasn't so great feeling), because I love strenght training, I love doing reps and feeling it in my muscles. It's a workout that makes me feel so confident in myself, something I don't always get from cardio (because there is always someone killing it just a bit more than I am). Sure, I get the high and good feeling, but there is something about strength training. Maybe it's the way it makes me feel, maybe it's the fact that I'm normally one of like 3 girls in the gym doing it. I dunno, but it's an awesome feeling :-)
And what's more, I went home, ate a relatively healthy dinner ( LOVE fajitas), watched my shows (Bored to Death, which had the weirdest ending, and Dexter), and went to bed. No snacks, no dessert, pure OPness.
I planned to wake up early and do a video. I woke up this morning (early) and realized I didn't set up a video. I almost just said "eff it" and went back to sleep, but I pushed myself to get up. And I'm so glad I did! Once I was up, I felt fine, no more tired than I normally am in the morning.
I did a Yoga video, something I had never done before, but always wanted to try. I started out with a Jilian video, but one squat and I realized how sore my legs were from the gym the night before, so I switched to a starter yoga video on demand.
It was actually a really good one for beginners, because none of the movements were that hard, but I was still sweaty and felt like I was getting a workout, I was actually really surprised. Was it killing me as much as a Jillian or Biggest Loser video does? Nope, but it was a different kind of burn, and when I was done I felt so awake and energised. I think it's really good that I did this, because now I can use the fact that I KNOW I'll feel great afterwards to push me to get up and going earlier in the morning. And hopefully, I can do this a couple times a week!
Today I have a pork sandwich for lunch, Matt and I are making a African peanut soup, which I'm psyched about :-) I'm excited for tomorrow, I love Thanksgiving, especially with my family. Where so many of us watch our weight, it's really easy to stay OP during the meal. I just gotta watch my snacking and drinking!
Happy Thanksgiving!
So fingers crossed everyone, I'm back on track and I (hopefully) have my motivation back! woohoo!
This morning I got up 40 minutes early, and worked out.
But let me back track a bit.
So I did make it to the gym last night, and had a great strength workout alongside some cardio (mainly walking on an incline, with a little running although my indigestion was terrible so it wasn't too much!)
It hurt, a lot. That's what I get for only doing cardio/videos for like, a month. But it was a good hurt (ok some of it wasn't so great feeling), because I love strenght training, I love doing reps and feeling it in my muscles. It's a workout that makes me feel so confident in myself, something I don't always get from cardio (because there is always someone killing it just a bit more than I am). Sure, I get the high and good feeling, but there is something about strength training. Maybe it's the way it makes me feel, maybe it's the fact that I'm normally one of like 3 girls in the gym doing it. I dunno, but it's an awesome feeling :-)
And what's more, I went home, ate a relatively healthy dinner ( LOVE fajitas), watched my shows (Bored to Death, which had the weirdest ending, and Dexter), and went to bed. No snacks, no dessert, pure OPness.
I planned to wake up early and do a video. I woke up this morning (early) and realized I didn't set up a video. I almost just said "eff it" and went back to sleep, but I pushed myself to get up. And I'm so glad I did! Once I was up, I felt fine, no more tired than I normally am in the morning.
I did a Yoga video, something I had never done before, but always wanted to try. I started out with a Jilian video, but one squat and I realized how sore my legs were from the gym the night before, so I switched to a starter yoga video on demand.
It was actually a really good one for beginners, because none of the movements were that hard, but I was still sweaty and felt like I was getting a workout, I was actually really surprised. Was it killing me as much as a Jillian or Biggest Loser video does? Nope, but it was a different kind of burn, and when I was done I felt so awake and energised. I think it's really good that I did this, because now I can use the fact that I KNOW I'll feel great afterwards to push me to get up and going earlier in the morning. And hopefully, I can do this a couple times a week!
Today I have a pork sandwich for lunch, Matt and I are making a African peanut soup, which I'm psyched about :-) I'm excited for tomorrow, I love Thanksgiving, especially with my family. Where so many of us watch our weight, it's really easy to stay OP during the meal. I just gotta watch my snacking and drinking!
Happy Thanksgiving!
So fingers crossed everyone, I'm back on track and I (hopefully) have my motivation back! woohoo!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Ready for a Break!
Happy Tuesday everyone! I am happy to report that:
-I did not go crazy this weekend. And
-I had a really good time :-)
Did I eat fantastically? Nah. But I was honest, tracked everything (including all the drinks. Starting early really sets you back), and resisted on multiple occasions. In fact, I think that my worst was probably sunday, due to the hangover. All I wanted was fried food, haha.
Positives/Negatives:
-I didn't work out but I focused on portion sizes and filling meals. I bearly snacked which is really good for me
-I ate an entire chicken parm grinder for dinner on Sunday but combined with my french toast for breakfast, I was still only a little bit over
-I drank a lot, but I tracked everything, and focused on low calorie mixed drinks
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So overall, it definetly could have been worse. I'm glad I didn't just write this weekend off as a wash. I need to stop doing that so much! I didn't get to work out yesterday (didn't feel good/had a million things to do!) but was pretty good with my eating so I'm ok. I was so tired from all the traveling, I think it's understandable. I have plans to go tonight and tomorrow (hopefully for a morning workout!)
And we have a meal plan, which is great because I won't lie, the temptation to throw caution out the window since it's a short week is definetly there. But we have so much food to eat up, it's good :-)
T- ground turkey fajitas with black beans, peppers and onions (cardio/weights at the gym)
W- african cashew soup from 110pounds.com. I'm so excited for this! We are pairing it with sourdough bread, and slicing some cheddar cheese on top as well :-) (video workout)
Th- Thanksgiving!! (hiking!)
Friday- leftovers for lunch, fish tacos for Dins (workout outside I think, it's gonna be so nice!)
Saturday- steak stir fry for lunch, then out for pizza for dinner! (walking)
Should be a good week, hopefully my efforts will be reflected at the scale!
-I did not go crazy this weekend. And
-I had a really good time :-)
Did I eat fantastically? Nah. But I was honest, tracked everything (including all the drinks. Starting early really sets you back), and resisted on multiple occasions. In fact, I think that my worst was probably sunday, due to the hangover. All I wanted was fried food, haha.
Positives/Negatives:
-I didn't work out but I focused on portion sizes and filling meals. I bearly snacked which is really good for me
-I ate an entire chicken parm grinder for dinner on Sunday but combined with my french toast for breakfast, I was still only a little bit over
-I drank a lot, but I tracked everything, and focused on low calorie mixed drinks
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| hey, could be worse! |
So overall, it definetly could have been worse. I'm glad I didn't just write this weekend off as a wash. I need to stop doing that so much! I didn't get to work out yesterday (didn't feel good/had a million things to do!) but was pretty good with my eating so I'm ok. I was so tired from all the traveling, I think it's understandable. I have plans to go tonight and tomorrow (hopefully for a morning workout!)
And we have a meal plan, which is great because I won't lie, the temptation to throw caution out the window since it's a short week is definetly there. But we have so much food to eat up, it's good :-)
T- ground turkey fajitas with black beans, peppers and onions (cardio/weights at the gym)
W- african cashew soup from 110pounds.com. I'm so excited for this! We are pairing it with sourdough bread, and slicing some cheddar cheese on top as well :-) (video workout)
Th- Thanksgiving!! (hiking!)
Friday- leftovers for lunch, fish tacos for Dins (workout outside I think, it's gonna be so nice!)
Saturday- steak stir fry for lunch, then out for pizza for dinner! (walking)
Should be a good week, hopefully my efforts will be reflected at the scale!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
On the Edge
So to start, I didn't expect a loss today. You wanna know why?
Because I've been honest with myself. I've been tracking things to the best of my abilities, trying to watch portion sizes, etc. I walked a ton on Saturday and worked out Sunday (30 day shred) and Tuesday (running and abs!).
Was I perfect? Nah, but I was honest. I resisted cravings, (for the most part), and offered to drive on Saturday night so that I wouldn't drink to the point of getting drunk (or even tipsy for that matter). I didn't feel the need to binge like I had been the past few weeks, and it felt good to be somewhat in control. It made me feel good about going away this weekend, because I know I can come up with a gameplan and follow through with it.
AT least, I hope so.
anyways, backtracking haha. This weekend was a lot of fun. Friday night I met some friends out at a bar for some good beer. I had a good amount, but not too much, thanks to my indigestion acting up something fierce about half way through the night. OH well. Saturday I still felt crummy (It was seriously the worst) and after a nice soup Matt and I showed his parents our place, and then I met up with my friend D, who was visiting with her boyfriend for the weekend. Saturday we had dinner at Wagamamas (after walking about the north end, which was great!), which I definetly ate too much of haha and then out for drinks. It was a nice night, and I didn't feel bad about my eating/drinking, because I did my best to moderate.
Sunday was probably my worst day, not due to my eating, but the fact that I drank all day. But it happens, and I didn't actually get drunk, just a little tipsy :-)
I also found out that the ice cream place near us has "hard yogurt", which is really low calorie, and ultimately delicious. Best. Find. Ever.
The rest of the week was pretty in control. I didn't go crazy with eating, I tried to stop myself at one portion, etc.
I weighed in this morning at 197.2. I don't even want to talk about that. Because for all my overkill this week, I know I didn't go over by that much (remember the honesty?), and I burnt at least 1000. At least. I miss my Heart rate monitor. Over thanksgiving I'm making an honest effort to find it. I'm 75% sure it's somewhere in my car.
I'm tired today, abut am happy to report that I went home and worked out (because Matt took my ipod today. Tricky) and cooked dinner (This)
It's a work in progress haha dinner came after working out, and took a bit longer than I thought. But oh well. Heading to Jersey after work tomorrow, could not be more excited :-)
Because I've been honest with myself. I've been tracking things to the best of my abilities, trying to watch portion sizes, etc. I walked a ton on Saturday and worked out Sunday (30 day shred) and Tuesday (running and abs!).
Was I perfect? Nah, but I was honest. I resisted cravings, (for the most part), and offered to drive on Saturday night so that I wouldn't drink to the point of getting drunk (or even tipsy for that matter). I didn't feel the need to binge like I had been the past few weeks, and it felt good to be somewhat in control. It made me feel good about going away this weekend, because I know I can come up with a gameplan and follow through with it.
AT least, I hope so.
anyways, backtracking haha. This weekend was a lot of fun. Friday night I met some friends out at a bar for some good beer. I had a good amount, but not too much, thanks to my indigestion acting up something fierce about half way through the night. OH well. Saturday I still felt crummy (It was seriously the worst) and after a nice soup Matt and I showed his parents our place, and then I met up with my friend D, who was visiting with her boyfriend for the weekend. Saturday we had dinner at Wagamamas (after walking about the north end, which was great!), which I definetly ate too much of haha and then out for drinks. It was a nice night, and I didn't feel bad about my eating/drinking, because I did my best to moderate.
Sunday was probably my worst day, not due to my eating, but the fact that I drank all day. But it happens, and I didn't actually get drunk, just a little tipsy :-)
I also found out that the ice cream place near us has "hard yogurt", which is really low calorie, and ultimately delicious. Best. Find. Ever.
The rest of the week was pretty in control. I didn't go crazy with eating, I tried to stop myself at one portion, etc.
I weighed in this morning at 197.2. I don't even want to talk about that. Because for all my overkill this week, I know I didn't go over by that much (remember the honesty?), and I burnt at least 1000. At least. I miss my Heart rate monitor. Over thanksgiving I'm making an honest effort to find it. I'm 75% sure it's somewhere in my car.
I'm tired today, abut am happy to report that I went home and worked out (because Matt took my ipod today. Tricky) and cooked dinner (This)
It's a work in progress haha dinner came after working out, and took a bit longer than I thought. But oh well. Heading to Jersey after work tomorrow, could not be more excited :-)
Thursday, November 10, 2011
.08 is enough
So fun little story. Remember that time that I threw caution to the wind and snacked and drank and ate food without abandon for a full week? Blaming it on the stress of moving, and learning to live with someone else, being tired from moving and "getting a workout" from that.
I'm not gonna call it a spiral, because it wasn't. It was a break. A break from a break from a break that I've basically been on since June when I hit 200. And I'm having so much trouble stopping.
Sunday night Matt and I had a talk where he told me he felt like he couldn't stop eating, and was nervous that he was falling back into his old habits of eating, and would gain the weight back. And it made me feel better that I wasn't the only one who felt this way, because once I hit 200, that's how I've felt. I've made excuses for it, and claimed I was going to recommit myself, and get back on track. In reality, I've been flip flopping. At the first opportunity to cheat, I give in, and make excuses. Something comes up after work? I just don't go to the gym, I mean it's ok, I'll just go tomorrow right?
So to summarize, I've been a lousy loser lately :-P
And I'm not going to say "but I'm back on track, because I'm acknowledging it". Because that hasn't worked. Instead, I'm going to tell you what I saw on Sunday morning, when I peeked at the scale after a night of martinis (only 2!) chips and queso, and a sausage/potato/butternut squash roast thing I ate at home. Oh and a giant burger with fries I had for lunch. I felt bloated, and pretty damn disgusting. And then I saw this:
202.4
now, I'm not crazy, I didn't panic, I knew I didn't gain 10 pounds in a week. But it was enough to get my ass doing cardio max for a half hour on Sunday morning, and focusing on being better.
And this week, I've made mistakes. I've had a bit too many candies that my mom kindly gave me for my treats jar (why do I have a treats jar?) , and snacked a bit in between meals. But I was closer to my calorie goal, and made an honest effort to eat healthy and work out (hit the gym once, did two videos, took an hour walk/job on saturday), and was only up .08 this week. Which is far better than 10 pounds. But I need to stop the yoyos.
I'm not entirely sure the point of this post. More just to be honest, and not keep stuff hidden, like it didn't happen. Because the past week, month, 4 months really have happened, and I need to be honest with that. And move on.
So here is my plan, that I am going to try and stick with:
Happy Thursday (almost Friday!)
I'm not gonna call it a spiral, because it wasn't. It was a break. A break from a break from a break that I've basically been on since June when I hit 200. And I'm having so much trouble stopping.
Sunday night Matt and I had a talk where he told me he felt like he couldn't stop eating, and was nervous that he was falling back into his old habits of eating, and would gain the weight back. And it made me feel better that I wasn't the only one who felt this way, because once I hit 200, that's how I've felt. I've made excuses for it, and claimed I was going to recommit myself, and get back on track. In reality, I've been flip flopping. At the first opportunity to cheat, I give in, and make excuses. Something comes up after work? I just don't go to the gym, I mean it's ok, I'll just go tomorrow right?
So to summarize, I've been a lousy loser lately :-P
And I'm not going to say "but I'm back on track, because I'm acknowledging it". Because that hasn't worked. Instead, I'm going to tell you what I saw on Sunday morning, when I peeked at the scale after a night of martinis (only 2!) chips and queso, and a sausage/potato/butternut squash roast thing I ate at home. Oh and a giant burger with fries I had for lunch. I felt bloated, and pretty damn disgusting. And then I saw this:
202.4
now, I'm not crazy, I didn't panic, I knew I didn't gain 10 pounds in a week. But it was enough to get my ass doing cardio max for a half hour on Sunday morning, and focusing on being better.
And this week, I've made mistakes. I've had a bit too many candies that my mom kindly gave me for my treats jar (why do I have a treats jar?) , and snacked a bit in between meals. But I was closer to my calorie goal, and made an honest effort to eat healthy and work out (hit the gym once, did two videos, took an hour walk/job on saturday), and was only up .08 this week. Which is far better than 10 pounds. But I need to stop the yoyos.
I'm not entirely sure the point of this post. More just to be honest, and not keep stuff hidden, like it didn't happen. Because the past week, month, 4 months really have happened, and I need to be honest with that. And move on.
So here is my plan, that I am going to try and stick with:
- work out at least 4 times. Including getting up 1/2 hour early tomorrow for a walk/jog. Plan for Friday, Saturday or Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday
- focus on pre tracking, because that makes me think twice about bad choices
- keep to portion sizes
- limit sugar, soda,etc. When in doubt, say no!
Happy Thursday (almost Friday!)
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
October results and November goals!
So I cannot believe how fast October went! With moving at the end of the month, I didn't workout for the last weekend, but I'm sure I burnt something. Just not tracked :-) I'm also not on my work computer, so bear with me with the formatting :-)
note: I'm the worst. I wrote this last week, and never posted. So here you go, because I've been awful, and don't want to post about it :-P
Burn 8000 Calories: 7114. Not too shabby!
Lose 4 pounds:Start Weight: 194.2. Current Weight: 192.8 1.4 down. Better than nothing, right?
Work out 20 times! 16 Workouts. So close!
Pretrack 50% of meals and track all: Probably my worst month for this.
Ok, so all things considered, going away, my birthday, Halloween, moving, etc, I think it's pretty great that I did as well as I did. Now I'm back on track. November goals!
1. Burn 8000 Calories, for real
2. Lose 2 pounds.
3. Workout 20 times
4. Focus on tracking. Don't get sidetracked!
5. Meal plan every week
6. Get up early for a workout at least 2X this month. I have my own living room, and a beautiful park a minute away, I have no excuses!
Lets do this!Number 4 is especially important for me, because with moving out comes more expenses (ugh). Matt and I are committed to meal planning, couponing, and sticking to our budget (100 a week max). Living near a trader joes will definetly help this, but either way meal planning will help me stay OP and in budget :-)
I'm going to give myself the rest of this week as a break, working out wise. I want to get organized, that's a priority. This weekend I am going to hit up the gym at least once.
note: I'm the worst. I wrote this last week, and never posted. So here you go, because I've been awful, and don't want to post about it :-P
Burn 8000 Calories: 7114. Not too shabby!
Lose 4 pounds:Start Weight: 194.2. Current Weight: 192.8 1.4 down. Better than nothing, right?
Work out 20 times! 16 Workouts. So close!
Pretrack 50% of meals and track all: Probably my worst month for this.
Ok, so all things considered, going away, my birthday, Halloween, moving, etc, I think it's pretty great that I did as well as I did. Now I'm back on track. November goals!
1. Burn 8000 Calories, for real
2. Lose 2 pounds.
3. Workout 20 times
4. Focus on tracking. Don't get sidetracked!
5. Meal plan every week
6. Get up early for a workout at least 2X this month. I have my own living room, and a beautiful park a minute away, I have no excuses!
Lets do this!Number 4 is especially important for me, because with moving out comes more expenses (ugh). Matt and I are committed to meal planning, couponing, and sticking to our budget (100 a week max). Living near a trader joes will definetly help this, but either way meal planning will help me stay OP and in budget :-)
I'm going to give myself the rest of this week as a break, working out wise. I want to get organized, that's a priority. This weekend I am going to hit up the gym at least once.
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