my poor knee

So I think a combo of sitting on a bus for 10 plus hours with my legs in the upright position and running monday and working the eliptical tuesday gave me a weird feeling in my knee.

Wednesday my knee started to feel kind of sore. I decided to take the night off of work. The pain intensified, and became more of a pressure under my knee cap. This morning I felt stiff but definitely better, but once the IB profen started to wear off  the pain was right back, if not worse :-( I bought an icy hot pack and an ace bandage, and am resting tonight, hoping the pain will be gone tomorrow.


Anyways, Last weekend was a blast. I went to New Jersey to visit my London friends. The bus ride down sucked, our 4 hour bus ride ended up being 6, due to ridiculous drivers. But after that it was great. We drank a lot, we ate a lot (sadly, I definitely kept WW in the back of my mind though and could have done  a LOT worse), and laughed even more. Really good weekend :-)

Coming up this weekend BF and I are having a romantic getaway :-) We're going to Portsmouth NH for saturday night, and going to the beer fest up there, and then going out, getting drunk, and spending time together, its going to be awesome :-)

Then I have next week off!!! I'm so tired right now, so I'm at a loss what to talk about, but I promise I'll update sooner rather than later :-)

Food Love

So one thing that I'm assuming helped me gain all the weight is my love of two things: Bread and Cheese (We'll talk cheese later). Growing up, I would eat slice after slice of both. My favorite hangover remedy is bread and butter, or a delicious grilled cheese sandwich

So starting Weight Watchers, I would think that most poeple would probably agree, those are the two things that can really rack up the calories. I tried to find lower calorie options, that would still allow me to eat them.

unfortunetly, most low calorie breads and  cheeses don't taste very good. My sister and i found this awesome LF shredded mozzarella at Trader Joes, and most low fat mozzarella in general isn't bad. I can't stand low fat cheddar cheese, and most low calorie breads (including sandwich thins) taste awfully papery.

Thankfully I found bagel thins, seriously my favorite ever. I would make amazing sandwiches using these guys instead of bread. After about 3 months of this though, I got burnt out. (As you can imagine). I switched to Salads, which already I get burnt out very easily (I can only handle so much lettuce!)

So I've been asking around , and finally I've found the one thing to help me out of my sandwich rut:

Calise Deli Slims

Here's the backstory (yes, I have a bread backstory)

Growing up, I ate this brand ALL THE TIME. they have the best sandwich rolls, such awesome flavor. But when I seriously started to try and lose weight, I had to cut them out. (minus the rare time that I would basically say fuck it and have a delicious turkey sandwich on one ). about a week ago, I saw these on my kitchen counter, so I ask my sister if they are good. Her eyes seriously widened, and she goes "omgyes".

So I bought them. none of the cardboardy feel, they are super moist and taste just like the big ones. Except they are thinner. I put a chicken patty (Perdue italian baked ones. Amazingness) and loaded up the veggies, and ate that bad boy up. It was sooo good, and now I can eat sandwiches again!

I'll do a life update later this week :-*

Dissapointment

So I gained this week, 2 pounds. I don't think they are actually "2 pounds". I cheated a lot , I know that, but I don't think I did two pounds worth of damage. I tracked everything, When I cheated it was small portions of bad stuff, not binges, and even though I didn't work out a lot, I still worked out 2 X. Better than nothing. I think going out to eat last night and the wine hurt me more than I thought. That, and I was a candy queen last week, being on my TOM.
ahh well :-)

At first, It was the worst morning ever. I woke up late, I gained 2 pounds, but after I had time to digest it, and I combated entering my weight into the tracker, I realized that this may be what I need. Lately I've been so on and off plan, that's not how you follow WW. I've been saying that I'm going to be back on plan, and will be for a week, and then I make poor choices. I had one of the best workouts in the past month on Wednesday, and i think it's because I didn't build it up in my mind, you know?

So Plan for the week:
-Plan for EVERYTHING. Try not to cheat this, and if I do, TRACK. no late night drunk munchies :-)
-work out today, sunday, monday (if I'm not too sore), Wednesday and thursday. Maybe saturday depending on how much time I have.
-eat in, eat wholesome foods, try and focus on getting in my health guidelines, not what i WANT to eat.

Hopefully I'll have good news next week :-)

I'm a sucker for

Eating out. It truly is my downfall. I was SUPPOSED to babysit tonight, but the mom got sick and cancelled. So I call BF, who has the night off, and tell him we have a night together :-) he suggests going out to eat, I immediately say sure! Bah!

Normally, not a big deal. But my muscle pain took me away from the gym on Monday, and my hungover exhaustion led me to sleep instead of workout on Saturday, so I only have two days in this week. :-( And it's weigh in tomorrow. I did convince him to get wine instead of beer, thats good, right?

ahh well, you only live once, And I'm going to use the excuse that A. BF and I NEVER go out to eat. Like seriously, we prefer to save money and go out for drinks. B.I can use this as a chance to work on portions!

:-)

temptations...

I'm seeing them more and more around me. But first things first:

Last weigh in on Friday, I was down 1.5. Super psyched! Sadly, I did not make use of that into the weekend.

Confessional time
In all honesty, I wasn't THAT bad. Saturday night I had fish with little roasted potatoes, and I drank, but not excessively. (3 drinks, one was very low point). I tracked everything, and while my friend J's mom was offering me sweet after sweet, I tried each of them and then refused any more. And sunday I had a lovely egg with veggies, and low calorie toast.

But I did snack, more than I should have
I didn't work out as much as I should have
And Friday night, and drank and ate more than I should have (were talking 6 + drinks, albeit low point but still, and then pizza, and then leftover roasted turkey. I',m such a weird drunk eater)
Then today, I couldn't resist that pumpkin donut this morning :-( or eating out for lunch instead of going to the store like I KNOW i should have. Tomorrow, no excuses! I'm going to buy a low point lunch for the rest of the week. All things set aside, I did only go into 1 of my weeklies today, but I don't feel good about what I ate, you know?


That's what is weird, like as of right now, I don't feel like I've had a good week, but on paper, I haven't had a bad one. Besides the donut this morning, and the drunk eating on Friday (which I tracked, and wasn't THAT bad. I've definitly done worse), I haven't had any other slip ups, and both of those worked into my weeklies.

I had a good weekend though, BF and I went to see this band in Davis Square, at the Rosebud Grill. I drank Gin Seltzer Cranberry's all night, I didn't have one beer! And I wasn't hung over the next day :-) Both the band and the band that played before them were really good, and it was only a 5 dollar show! A great night.

Saturday I hung out with two of my oldest friends, we will call them J1 and J2 The J's and I have been friends since high school, one of them since I was 8. They are definitely two people that I trust a lot, because no matter the tiffs we get into or anything, they are good people, and good friends. We went to J2's parent's house and her mom made us drinks and played balderdash with us. IT was a lot of fun :-) I was so tired though, I took a nap in the afternoon, which threw me off.

Sunday I did some work and then went to the gym with my friend JH. She and I took turns showing each other the moves we normally do at the gym, I won't lie, I am HURTING today. We spent a solid hour doing weights and then a half hour doing cardio, very different than my normal gym routine. But a lot of fun :-) I felt awesome after that workout, even though I am paying for it today, I figure tomorrow I can take a walk after work, and Wednesday be back to working out.

I'm really frustrated with my working out lately. Even Sunday, we went to the gym and I tried to run, and was exhausted after 5 minutes. I did 20 two weeks ago!! I'm going to attribute sunday to the fact that we worked out for a solid hour before I started to run, and the past few weeks to the fact that I've been kind of burnt out. Doing pretty much the same thing over and over again gets sort of tiring, and I was loosing my motivation. I took last week off from any gym activity, and just walked and did videos. Sunday even I felt a bit better running (my knee was starting to ache too), which motivated me a lot more, I think I just tried to make myself do too much. I'm going to try again on Wednesday, and maybe do an outdoor run on the weekend, that may get me going!

Rest of the week: Tomorrow is Trivia at this bar with amazing burgers. I know, after talking about how I feel like I hav ebeen failing, I'm going to this place? But it's been months since I did trivia, and I did the math out, if I limit myself to half my meal (which the portions are huge, I should be ok) it is only 12 points, so as long as I'm careful during the day, I should be ok, and able to splurge here!

Wednesday is Girls night, which is just watching a movie, occasionally we drink, but I'll decline. I've gotten better at that lately. Thursday I'm babysitting for the first time for a family nearby. I'm pretty excited, It'll be a regular job, which will be nice.

This coming weekend should be easy to stay OP, Friday night I'm not sure of my plans, but DBF and I are cooking, and then Saturday I'm babysitting, so here's to a renewed motivation!!!

Dog Days of Summer

Isn't that what they call right now? those last few weeks before school starts and the fall air comes in. Last week was so muggy and blah, then the hurricane brought in crazy winds this weekend, so the days have been perfect and the nights have been cold! but hey,I'll take cold over muggy and gross anyday.



Anyways, Last weekend was great, it was awesome to see Danielle, We went to her family home in southampton, we beached, we pooled, we drank, and we ate. I was good about moderation, tried to fill up on salads and stuff, while still indulging on some food (her mom made pork parmeasan, it was fantastic). IT was a great distraction from life, and a great way to end the summer.

Monday morning I woke up with a great big smile on my face :-) Picked up the Matt at the airport, it was weird, we did the whole LD thing for almost 2 years while I was at school, and I would go weeks without seeing him. I guess we've just gotten a lot closer than we were back then, because I missed him like crazy. It was great to see him :-)

Tuesday I did something I hadn't done in a long time, I went grocery shopping for my lunches. I  bought a ton of salad stuff, veggie burgers, fresh cheese, and a ton of fruit. It was great, I felt so satisfied at work, was never tempted to eat out (except friday, but hey I had a good WI, so I treated myself to the best turkey sandwich out there!)

This weekend too, I've been careful with my eating, slowly and thoughtfully, trying my hardest to be OP. It feels great :-) I also had an awesome workout yesterday, and plan on going to the gym with Matt tomorrow, which will help me stay on plan this week. I'm realizing that part of this "Wall" I hit is that I was so focused on that 5x a week, I was tiring myself out. 4x and walking outside of this is the best for me, If I do more than that, great, and if I don't, then I know where to improve next time.

I'm also looking into 5ks to sign up for, because I know that this wall I'm hitting with running has nothing to do with my ability, I did 20 minutes, I know I can move forward from that, I think it's not having to do it. If I don't move on to the next level then nothing happens, but if I have a race to work towards, it might give me the jump I need. I'm also going to work towards moving my running outside. It's getting cooler out now, less humid, and that may help to not have to be in a gym on a treadmill, you know?

I'll check in soon!!